I have 8 monthly listeners atm. Working on a new song which is very good and have a chance to get some exposure imo (afro house, summer vibes kinda song)
But the thing is that I use distrokid, and in order to pitch it before releasing the song I have to upgrade my current subscription tier, is it worth giving a shot?
I would define myself as a very emotionally calm and mature person, trying to apply as much stoicism into my life as possible. I don't have a gf so I practice semen retention which helps a lot, I workout, try to eat as healthy as possible.
My last job was terrible in terms of the job itself and accomodation, so I quit. (usually I work abroad and work always provides accomodation, after a while I take holidays, stay at my moms house and go back)
That's how pretty much all the past 10 years went by.
However, I struggle immensely with finances. And only now I understand how to manage them, after losing a lot of money on stupid shit and stupid investments, but the thing is now I'm broke. I have a few hunderd bucks to my name, and some loans. This month is covered but idk what I will do in the next one. There's not much people I can ask help for and I feel ashamed to do this even.
I probably get a job in a 2 weeks (hopefully) but I'm finding myself in an awful place. It takes a huge toll on me mentally, I try my best to stay strong but it's getting harder each day.
All I want is to relax a bit and in the future buy my mom a nice place to live (she rents) and retire her as well, and also help myself. I'm tired seeing everyone achieving something and for me it's one rock bottom after another one, it seems.
I just feel lost, shattered and have no idea how to deal with this. I had many brutal downfalls in my life but this one is the worst one tbh. I will appreciate any help.
I'm finishing a song (150 BPM bounce techno) but I'm not sure how to determine the loudness? What kind of loudness to aim for?
I'm just so done with everything tbh. I have a holidays rn for 2 more weeks, 1 week has passed already and I didn't feel rested at all (I spend a lot of time making music which I really love to do) that's probably the only thing still keeping me sane. Also trying to trade on the side to make some money, because I guess all of us here struggles with money for some reason.
Took a small nap today and woke up feeling like I was under the train, all my body is sore. Idk what's even happening.
I rarely complain and I really try my best despite the situations and not to waste my time for meaningless things and build my future, I've been doing this for such a long time but for some reason 3D reality is not showing it yet. I didn't even had normal holidays, now spending my time in a small one room apartment which my mother rents, also I don't have a car so I'm kinda "locked" inside. Good thing is that my best friend will visit me today.
I know that I will be successful and I deserve a bright future, but how long should I suffer? Am I paying some karmic debts of others maybe as well? Because it literally doesn't make any sense anymore.
Idk what's even the question anymore, but I just want to have some brighter days.. does anyone else relates to this?