u/blahhblah11

Recently I had a new release and I used meta ads through instagram reel I made, engagement type was website visit (added link straight to Spotify) spent 49euro over the 7 days and the results came like this: 15k views, 10k reach, 611 website visits (overall clicks is 784) 3s plays 5k, 20 shares and 8 saves with 0.08 euro per click. This campaign was successful but however only a fraction of people actually listened the song, I've get around 70 streams with 14 listeners. Is it because of the song? Now I'm making a new one which is so much better in terms of sound selection, mix, master etc and I'm thinking to do the same campaign I did before.

It's not my first long streak but so far it's the longest one, however I slipped.

Everything started today when I was hanging around with my friend. There was 2 girls nearby playing tennis, one of them was eyeing me and smiling, but I just gave kinda dead stare and didn't think much, although she was attractive to me. It got so much in my head that I started to fantasize about her, etc and ended up fapping (without any media)

How do I start this over? Also in these 6 months I had only 2 wet dreams and now this relapse, I don't think I lost that much but I want to get back on track and don't do this shit again because I'm doing creative work and this experience helped me massively tbh.

Yesterday I went to the rave. I'm a music producer so I go to this kind of events from time to time because I love good music and to dance as well, basically it's a relaxation to me. I've been there for like 4 hours, had some beer, met some nice people and that's pretty much it. Also no drugs were involved

Now once I go outside the club there's famous Red Light District literally in front of me and all around the place. I thought ok, I can check things out and test myself how strong my will power actually are. Checked all the girls, all of them looked terrible, faces and eyes were completely dead and empty, some of them was inviting me inside as any other guy walking past them, but I just smiled and moved on.

And there was one girl, kind of my type. I open the door, ask the price, she touches my hand and invites me inside. I said I'll think about this. Not gonna lie, I was a bit tempted to go inside, but after 5 minutes of walking decided to grab an uber and just go home, it's not worth it. That street is filled with lusting and demons and that thing is not for me.

I got home and went to sleep with a peace of mind that I didn't do any stupid shit and also saved my precious seed. I'm 4+ months of retention at this moment.

Basically I want to test waters first and do something like 8 euro a day for like 2 weeks, something like that. It will be my first time ever doing Meta ads (I did IG post boosting, got some followers but in the end it wasn't worth it)

I will do this for my upcoming song which is pitched and hopefully will land some playlists.

What kind of results should I expect from this kind of promotion?

I have 8 monthly listeners atm. Working on a new song which is very good and have a chance to get some exposure imo (afro house, summer vibes kinda song)

But the thing is that I use distrokid, and in order to pitch it before releasing the song I have to upgrade my current subscription tier, is it worth giving a shot?

I would define myself as a very emotionally calm and mature person, trying to apply as much stoicism into my life as possible. I don't have a gf so I practice semen retention which helps a lot, I workout, try to eat as healthy as possible.

My last job was terrible in terms of the job itself and accomodation, so I quit. (usually I work abroad and work always provides accomodation, after a while I take holidays, stay at my moms house and go back)

That's how pretty much all the past 10 years went by.

However, I struggle immensely with finances. And only now I understand how to manage them, after losing a lot of money on stupid shit and stupid investments, but the thing is now I'm broke. I have a few hunderd bucks to my name, and some loans. This month is covered but idk what I will do in the next one. There's not much people I can ask help for and I feel ashamed to do this even.

I probably get a job in a 2 weeks (hopefully) but I'm finding myself in an awful place. It takes a huge toll on me mentally, I try my best to stay strong but it's getting harder each day.

All I want is to relax a bit and in the future buy my mom a nice place to live (she rents) and retire her as well, and also help myself. I'm tired seeing everyone achieving something and for me it's one rock bottom after another one, it seems.

I just feel lost, shattered and have no idea how to deal with this. I had many brutal downfalls in my life but this one is the worst one tbh. I will appreciate any help.

I'm finishing a song (150 BPM bounce techno) but I'm not sure how to determine the loudness? What kind of loudness to aim for?

I'm just so done with everything tbh. I have a holidays rn for 2 more weeks, 1 week has passed already and I didn't feel rested at all (I spend a lot of time making music which I really love to do) that's probably the only thing still keeping me sane. Also trying to trade on the side to make some money, because I guess all of us here struggles with money for some reason.

Took a small nap today and woke up feeling like I was under the train, all my body is sore. Idk what's even happening.

I rarely complain and I really try my best despite the situations and not to waste my time for meaningless things and build my future, I've been doing this for such a long time but for some reason 3D reality is not showing it yet. I didn't even had normal holidays, now spending my time in a small one room apartment which my mother rents, also I don't have a car so I'm kinda "locked" inside. Good thing is that my best friend will visit me today.

I know that I will be successful and I deserve a bright future, but how long should I suffer? Am I paying some karmic debts of others maybe as well? Because it literally doesn't make any sense anymore.

Idk what's even the question anymore, but I just want to have some brighter days.. does anyone else relates to this?