u/blueblueblueyay

I’m so frustrated

21f, saudi, refugee in England since 17yr old

I was abused and threatened my whole life for expressing atheist views, not knowing what they were, only being a curious 7 year old. The curiosity grew, and so did the fear and the punishment.

At 13 I was going to be married off to my cousin

At 15 I was pulled out of school because of bullying from teachers, children, my parents being complained to. Only because I was not complacent and submissive enough for them

The truth of Islam, Sharia, Saudi, the Islam that people love to infantilize. I lived it. I lived through it. I escaped. I ruined my life. I am sick. I am estranged. And it was all for NOTHING

I’m not well enough to speak. I am traumatized. I am not OKAY. I am sick. I am weak.

I did not come out of this as a strong woman, I did not find my voice, I did not thrive.

I will never share my true story. Nobody will ever care. Nobody understands. I will die with it. And the cycle WILL CONTINUE

I came here to scream, because I just saw my friend, who is a white European girl, express her support to a very popular, very POWERFUL Islamic “resistance” group… and I’ve seen this time and time again.

I want to vomit, because I cannot say anything. Nothing I say will ever make sense to the ones who never LIVED IT.

When justice becomes a dirty word, nobody will ever seek it

I’m so frustrated

21f, saudi, refugee in England since 17yr old

I was abused and threatened my whole life for expressing atheist views, not knowing what they were, only being a curious 7 year old. The curiosity grew, and so did the fear and the punishment.

At 13 I was going to be married off to my cousin

At 15 I was pulled out of school because of bullying from teachers, children, my parents being complained to. Only because I was not complacent and submissive enough for them

The truth of Islam, Sharia, Saudi, the Islam that people love to infantilize. I lived it. I lived through it. I escaped. I ruined my life. I am sick. I am estranged. And it was all for NOTHING

I’m not well enough to speak. I am traumatized. I am not OKAY. I am sick. I am weak.

I did not come out of this as a strong woman, I did not find my voice, I did not thrive.

I will never share my true story. Nobody will ever care. Nobody understands. I will die with it. And the cycle WILL CONTINUE

I came here to scream, because I just saw my friend, who is a white European girl, express her support to a very popular, very POWERFUL Islamic “resistance” group… and I’ve seen this time and time again.

I want to vomit, because I cannot say anything. Nothing I say will ever make sense to the ones who never LIVED IT.

When justice becomes a dirty word, nobody will ever seek it

اكره عيشتي و اكره نفسي و اكره كل احد حوليني.