u/bonniegooof

Or could this cause both of my applications to get rejected?

I have good grades (A+ A+ A predicted) and some relevant extracurriculars, and I think I can write a pretty good personal statement and study plan but I’m so nervous for the CSCA. Is it really that important and if I study for the next 4 months can I get a good chore to basically garuntee entry and CSC?

(Unsure if it is the right flair sorry)

She has been having meltdowns where she calls me names and is mean to me in the past 2 years since I got diagnosed, recently these meltdowns have gotten more severe and physical, she hits me and kicks me out of the house and it has gotten to the point where I am suicidal and I don’t take my insulin because I want life to go back to the way it was before I was diagnosed even though I know it is not possible. (It also doesn’t help that she told me to kill myself if I was so depressed)

She literally had the first meltdown in the hospital a few days after I work up from being comatose for a couple days. When she’s not having the breakdowns she basically ignores me and scroll all day (I think she is depressed :()

The funny thing is that I deal with this illness basically by myself. She does do things for me like take me to my appointments, pick up my prescriptions, and bring me snacks when I am low which I am really grateful for.

However I don’t truly appreciate what she does because she will just switch up on me for no reason. For example, once she was having one of these meltdowns and I went low (since she started screaming at me for no reason when h was eating my dinner after I had already taken insulin so I didn’t eat most for my food) and she mocked me and called me stupid for slurring my words.

I hate her so much but also live her so much

Edit: thank you for all the reassurance, I kinda needed it since my parents have told me and convinced me that I’m a monster :(. I have told all the adults in my life but nothing has come out of it; my dad says I deserve it, my grandparents are honestly just kinda sick of it all, my teachers/ doctors have referred me to CAMHS and social services but I have been discharged from both since my mums meltdowns only happen infrequently and the rest of the time she’s not a terrible parent. I will try and take my insulin atleast more frequently than I have been.

I bought a new IPad today and logged onto teams just fine, but when I try to access assignments through the assignments tab or through posts on teams a “we need to ask for additional permissions” screen pops up that goes unresponsive when I click continue or the exit button.

I have tried:
Clearing cashe
Logging in/out
Deleting and reinstalling the app
And using another device- teams assignments work fine on my phone and laptop.

Does anyone know why it doesn’t work in my IPad and how to fix it?