u/bristlefrosty

did you know that he is canonically just under 6ft. he is so much taller than me. he’s so boyfriend

still struggling with how i draw his face… he’s so HANDSOME and idk how to replicate it in my style

tw smoking in the latter two pictures if that is an issue for anybody

i’ve entertained a lot of hyperfixation-induced crushes that usually never reach f/o status because i thought bill was the only guy on that tier for me. but bender makes me feel just as giddy and completely in love as bill does!!! he has for over a month straight now!!! so. two separate self inserts now, which is an interesting learning curve. he doesn’t threaten or infringe on bill in any way, it’s just, like… a different avenue.

futurama is a show i have loved ever since i was a little kid. bender was actually one of my very earliest character fixations- years before i would even discover what a crush feels like, i was drawing him in sidewalk chalk and probably slightly concerning my parents LOL. i didn’t register anything about his personality at the time, it was just “WHOA COOL ROBOT” tunnel vision and that was all i needed. it’s a show i returned to throughout my teenage years, poking at the idea of bender as a crush object every time with varying levels of responsiveness to it

but oh my god. nothing could prepare me for how differently the show as a whole hits as an adult, and suddenly i registered bender as an entire guy! a dude! a man! an extremely attractive one apparently!!!! it’s like there was a frosted glass panel of “childhood cartoon” between him and me, and now i’m finally seeing him with clear eyes. and now suddenly literally everything about him is attractive to me. his voice. his swagger. his stupid little evil giggle. his performance of vice and how the performance is essentially a vice itself. the way he’s so obviously insecure but not in a way that collapses his ego, like he really does believe he’s all that and he just desperately needs to make sure everybody else agrees. his creative side especially- i had never really noticed that as a throughline before but he has consistent artistic inspirations and it’s incredibly endearing 🥺

i am so so so in love with him and so over the moon about it. i love this silly evil robot. futurama is an absolutely brilliant show for the record, i highly recommend it to anyone who hasn’t seen it!! the writing is razor-sharp and all the characters have such rich interiority while still being funny as all get out. for those of you who have seen it i would love to yap about it!!! :D

i apologize for the horrid image quality, you know how it is with streaming services