u/brreadstickzz

Disclaimer, I'm talking about my situation as an outlet and for advice. In no way trying to (in)directly get money nor will accept it following the community rules.

I (F,21) was advised to go to the psychiatrist in January 2026 and was diagnosed with depression and burn-out. I'm now on 225mg venlafaxine with folic acid and iron pills. My dose is still being evaluated in need of more mg's.

In total, I was 6 months off work. I didn't get paid because of a system error that couldn't put me in the sickness benefits of social security. I couldn't pay my newly therapist nor my psychiatry appointments. This resulted in fear and I was afraid I wouldn't get my prescriptions on time.

I started becoming a sex worker for money to pay the rent, since my job also didn't pay me because they assumed I got it from the benefits program.

Six months pass by and my psychiatrist told me to try and go back to work and get back to him in a month to see how it went.

Still after all these months was Social security hard to reach. But eventually I had to make an appointment with my psychiatrist to get documents to manually deliver, since the system couldn't do it for me.

That appointment was an expense I couldn't make, but I had no choice if I wanted to get an income.

Turns out, the documents were incomplete. I had to make another appointment, but I was blocked by the hospital for open payments.

Medication ran out, and was transferred by the ambulance to another hospital due to my withdrawals. I'm ashamed to admit it, but I sneaked away and nearly crawled out of the emergency department because I couldn't afford it and went back home.

I started isolating myself again after trying for what felt like an entity. I wasn't able to get justified absence or even a check-up after going back to work.

My performance at work was terrible. My manager and an HR executive tried supporting me, but a business stays a business.

I asked for two more weeks. Two weeks for me to fix it with social security and talk to my over-booked psychiatrist.

My permanent contract had been terminated effected immediately. I'm still not able to talk to my psychiatrist due to a payment due for useless documentation. Medication is running out. My therapist ghosted me.

I'm absolutely broken. I wish I never reached for help or opened up to my work. What am I, a fool? Did I really think I would get support?

I've been convincing myself that I shouldn't be shocked about all of this. But the truth is that I'm completely lost. I don't know what to do with any aspect of my life. I've been manipulating myself into believing my own lies. That I could fix it, even if it took 10 more steps for one task.

The truth is that I'm afraid. I'm so scared for not knowing what to do with my life. Being diagnosed gave me new hope. But I ended up more depressed than I already was for years.

What should I do?