u/bummybabe

In 2020 I got very ill following an ear infection. I never recovered and became basically bed bound with flu like symptoms, pain all over my body especially in the lymph nodes. I also had a lot of mucus in the sinuses, blocked nose, post nasal drip, fluid coming from my ear, constant colds and sinus infections. Migraines and headaches. Severe bloating. Diarrhoea. Brain fog. Exhaustion and severe fatigue. Trouble focusing. No motivation. Depression and anxiety. Insomnia. Extreme fatigue with a lot of restlessness.
Also sensations of extreme blood sugar dips and hunger even though blood glucose levels were always normal. Having to eat constantly. Weight gain. PMS and short cycles.

Nobody was helping me and my body was deteriorating more and more. It got so severe I could barely leave the house. I could not work. No social life. In pain and miserable all day and night.

Eventually I stumbled upon the notion of candida overgrowth and started a low carb diet, a herbal parasite cleanse followed by antifungals. I improved greatly and for some months I felt like a new person and wanted to begin my life again after many lost hopeless years. But within a couple short months I got very ill again.

Then the last couple years I keep going on and off the low carb diet and trying to cycle a bunch of different antifungals and biofilm busters and binders and what not, but nothing lasts.
I feel generally okay when I eat low carb, but as soon as I eat a little bit of carbs (it doesn’t matter what kind, low sugar, high sugar, high fibre, low fibre, gluten, no gluten. rice, potatoes, fruit, beans, grains.. all of it) I start to blow up like a balloon, I become extremely fatigued, get severe brain fog, I get mucus in my sinuses and fluid from my ear. I also get puffy and inflamed and I look like I gained a bunch of weight overnight. And I start to just feel generally ill as if I have the flu and I ache all over.

I have gone to a bunch of practitioners but nobody gives me any clear answers and just make me spend a lot of money on tests.

I did a microbiome test which didn’t show candida (but i know these candida tests are not reliable so i might still have that). I also was negative for SIBO but the doctor I’m working with said that even though it was negative I might still have it. It showed very low bifido and lactobacteria. A little bit higher zonulin but not a lot. High sugar and fat in stool. If you want more details I can look up the tests and give more info.

I had high borrellia roundbodies count, but not clear if it could be Lyme or not.

My hormones were all low if I remember correctly. (low estrogen progesterone and testosterone)

I got prescribed to make L. Reuteri yoghurt. I started it but not sure if it is doing something. Also got prescribed cetirizine + famotidine daily. What I notice from that is that I can finally sleep very well, and get rest and even nap which I couldn’t do for years. I am happy with this but the famotidine worries me as I feel that the stomach acid lowering could cause even more microbiome issues down the line.
Why do I feel better on low carb but super ill as soon as I eat a carb, even healthy ones? I am so tired of eating low carb, I’ve been on and off it for years and I just can’t keep it up any longer. Doesn’t seem to solve anything, just a bandaid for the symptoms. Also my body really seems to ask for carbs during my luteal phase so I always end up slipping up then, and then getting sick again.
Then after my period I try again feel better and the cycle repeats.

Any insight is appreciated

I’ve been eating low carb on and off to treat candida overgrowth in the gut for a long time now. Generally I am doing ok with this diet and even feel better with this way of eating. But I find myself struggling every month in the luteal phase (week before my period). I get way more hungry, shaky and weak if I don’t eat constantly, and I feel my body craving/needing carbs a lot during this time. It gets extremely hard to stick to the diet during this time and I find myself slipping and then regress. Does anyone have any advice on how to tackle this?

I'm not a medium by any means but I've had some 'experiences'. Last night I went to bed and I suddenly started feeling quite down and low mood, having weird depressing thoughts and later it developed into a full anxiety attack. I couldn't sleep till 3 am. This morning I called my mother and she said she had something similar, she was awake, suddenly felt very heavy, and she could not sleep properly till 5 in the morning. She then told me that at about 1am she felt super weird and heavy and then she realised that this night was the night my father passed away 25 years ago (I was 6 at the time he passed) I thought it was very interesting that we BOTH had this very strong experience of unsettling feelings before we realised it was the day of his passing.

Something similar happened when I was 16. I had had a particularly nice day and I felt very happy and good. Then suddenly by evening, a heavy energy came over me and I felt extremely sad completely out of the blue. My mother then told me that it had been 10 years since my dad's passing then. I had no idea, and I was pretty stunned by it. I then went to bed, and as I entered my bedroom I saw what I would describe as this phenomenon when it's really hot and you see the air above the asfalt 'wiggling' . It was a clear distinction in the air around it, it was like a spot where I could sense a presence. I immediately realised it probably was my father standing there. I was 16 and kind of frightened and I didn't know what to do. My cat came into the room and he clearly saw it too, he kept looking at that spot and his tail was wiggling. That night my cat slept next to my chest all night (he would never do that)

Then we also have a countryside home in the middle of nowhere (very old and primitive) where we go on holidays, and there is a small workshop outside that my grandfather used to work in on his technician work. That small space is outside and its generally locked and unused, full of dust and kind of decaying. But every once a while I go in there just to look. And every time a super heavy energy and sadness comes over me, that is so intense it becomes overwhelming.

I guess my question is, why is this energy so heavy and sad? Why can't it feel light and warm and loving and calm? What is happening from the spirit side? Is that their sadness I'm feeling? Or I guess, if anyone can give me some insight about these experieces in general, I would love to hear what they could mean, or anything at all.!