u/bunni_op-10N

I’m always hearing people say how high school is the prime, and that they wished they enjoyed it more. I see peers around me accomplish so much and I ask myself what I’m doing with my life.

I love to draw and create, but when I come back from school, I’m so tired that I just want to be on YouTube all day until I have to do my schoolwork, which I do until the end of the day, and the cycle repeats. I feel like I lost my passion to do anything fun except be on my phone. When I look back at this year specifically, I feel so awful that I have wasted away my youth. I’m scared that I’m just gonna wake up one day and be in my twenties and feel crappy for the time I have wasted being a teenager. I feel like if I don’t do anything now I’m just gonna waste away my teen years— but I can’t get myself to stop.

I guess I just wanna know, does anyone else feel this way? Is anyone else tired of this cycle of wanting to do so much with their life, but is being so burnt out, or lazy to do so? I feel like I see my friends or people around me do x and y, but I feel like I’m doing nothing. I’ve almost stopped drawing completely except for doodles here and there because I say “I don’t have time” when I probably could have time if I just put the damn phone down for once. A part of me wonders if maybe I’ve just changed? I have done things like cooked, baked, and journaled more recently, but I still feel as if my life revolves around my phone and things I shouldn’t really be caring about. And I’m so tired of burning myself out with school… but thats a whole nother thing, lol. What do I do?

TL;DR: I’m scared that I’m wasting away my teenage years from my phone but don’t know what to do about it.