Uncomfortable truth of my parents
( Not looking for sympathy )
When I was a kid my mom had sudden doubt on my father. She always felt that he’s cheating on her. That doubt became true and soon after my house became a battle ground.
I was in class 7th when this happened
Later my mom tried cutting her veins, had multiple sucid*e attempts and became mentally unstable.
When I reached class 10th my life finally became normal. But I saw more than 100 fights, blood and went thru sleepless night as parents fought whole night.
My brother and I had really terrible time.
There was even a time when she cut her veins and ran from house and went to my aunties house at 6am. And overnight my family became a running joke in our township.
Mother also left home for few months to stay with nani as she really became unstable.
Over these years I never doubted my father. But soon after my illusion broke.
Once his email id was open and I saw many emails from escort services. And I got shocked. This was when I was in class 10th when my life was somehow normal.
Then I saw few recordings on his Nokia e72. Those were mobile recordings of him and my mother’s best friend. She and my father were talking in very sexual tone and they were talking about my mother like how she’s so insane. I also saw a missed call on his phone that time we never had touch screen phones so I noted down that number as my gut feeling was telling me so and then I dialed it from PCO and it was some escort services.
My father is amazing towards me and treats me with lot of respect and kindness.
But I can not remove these things from my mind.
Fast forward 15 years later when he retired once I was using laptop and by mistake again he left his Gmail unattended. Though I didn’t see any bizarre email but in Gmail he was introducing himself as “looking for loving relationship. And short intro of his career”. I was so sad to read it.
Just a week ago I was going gym and it was only him and I at home. And when I was passing from his room , he was so lost in his phone. From his body language I knew he is talking to SOMEONE. And from that day I saw he gets on call with someone when mom is not at home. And he is 65
My bro me and mom are very naive people. We never cheated anyone but my father is a cheater. My mom was always right.
My father I believe had many relationships and slept around too. Wasted money on escorts when we were kid. I’m 30 now and now I’m remembering all of this suddenly.
I pray my mom gets a beautiful next life cuz this one was so painful. She even went to psychiatric when I was a kid cuz she felt so suicidal. It broke my heart. I was very small when all of this started. And my father hasn’t stopped still.