u/caitatonicc

so i 24f and my partner 26m have been together for roughly a year and a half. We’re both bi, and i am absolutely head over heels in love with him. For his birthday a couple months ago i decided I’d try something and ended up fingering him. Which he later told me that it made him wonder about what it would feel like to have a “real one”, and it shattered me. I still think about it now, although im bi, im very much monogamous and don’t really get desires to sleep with women when in a relationship with a man, well more specifically since ive been with him as im absolutely in love with him. I’m extremely sexually satisfied with my partner, but due to his medication he can only finish through penetrative sex. Which in turn makes me feel as if I don’t satisfy him, although i adore giving him head and he says it makes him feel all “tingly”. I have been seeking out other people stories hoping I’d get some validation and lose the worry of not being able to satisfy him. But reading through stuff it’s made me worry even deeper, ive read that bi men with girlfriends will hookup with men behind their backs, watch gay porn, sext men or they think about men a lot (and porn is a massive boundary for me due to being with porn addicted people before and it absolutely ruining me). And I just want my man to be happy, but Im extremely monogamous and the thought of him having fantasies and sleeping with other men (or women) crushes me. I just want to know if there’s any bi men out there that don’t want to hookup or sleep with men whilst being with their girlfriend or wife. As he promises me he’s happy and satisfied with me, but I’d just like the reassurance that some bi men actively don’t want to sleep with men because their female partner is more then enough for them.

Hi, ive applied for pip as my therapist, care coordinator and group therapists have all said i should go for it as im currently off of work sick and have been for the past half a year. i sent off everything the asked although i did have to get an extension due to really struggling to fill the forms out and also sent forms of id in the post as they’d asked me too.
Well fast forward to this morning and i received this text, and im really confused. Does it mean my claim and my id have been lost? im extremely anxious about it all and its send me down a spiral if im honest with you as i dont have money to support myself anything i do get from uc? gets given to my mam to help with bills. and this was hopefully going to help me out if i was accepted (i know its really hard and you usually have to fight to do so) im desperate to have some form of life, and i desperately need money to get to and from all of my therapy sessions and appointments, i also have to travel to get my meds. But im so confused with the process and scared I’ll become homeless as my parents simply cannot afford me to live at home whilst not working. But i need to focus on getting better as im horrendously suicidal, but i fear that if this doesn’t work im going to have to go back to work and it’s going to cause another big mental break down. please anyone with advice is greatly appreciate it. please dont judge ive only ever claimed when ive been in a psychiatric hospital and had periods of time where i was too unstable to work, but because of being delusional my mam mostly handled stuff for me. So i am stuck on what to do. I will attach a photo in the comments of the message if i can.
EDIT- so im stupid and I can’t post a photo of the message but it’s reads
“We have not received your 'How your disability affects you' form. We have sent your PIP claim to a Health Professional before we can make our decision. They will contact you if you need an assessment. You only need to contact us if your circumstances change.”