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I know this may sound unusual, but I am looking for sincere guidance from people who have experience with mantra sadhana, Bhairav upasana, or traditional spiritual practice.

For the last 2 months, I have been doing a Bhairava mantra japa using a digital counter. The mantra contains "Om" but no bija mantra. I come from a Shaiva family where Mahadev has been our Ishta Devata for generations, and I have received "Om" through my Upanayana Samskara, so I am not using it without initiation.

My daily count is quite high, usually around 20,000 repetitions. Due to practical circumstances, I am currently unable to use a mala regularly, so I use a digital counter instead.

The issue is that since increasing my japa count, I have been experiencing extremely intense sexual thoughts and desires. They feel much stronger than before and sometimes difficult to control.

A few observations:

• Before starting this high-count japa, I used to masturbate almost daily.

• During these last 2 months, I have only masturbated twice.

• I had one nightfall during this period.

• My girlfriend and I are in a long-distance relationship, so there is no physical outlet.

• The intensity of sexual energy seems to be increasing rather than decreasing.

Another thing I have noticed is certain physical sensations during or after japa. Sometimes I feel pressure or movement-like sensations around the tip of the nose, the bridge of the nose, and the area between the eyebrows (ajna region). At times the sensation seems to shift from one point to another. For example, I may feel pressure strongly at the nose tip, then later near the eyebrow center, while the other points become quiet. It feels almost as if something is slowly moving between these locations.

I am not claiming this is kundalini or any specific spiritual phenomenon. I am simply describing what I experience and would like to know whether others have observed something similar during prolonged mantra practice.

I am not asking whether sexuality is good or bad. I am trying to understand what may be happening from a spiritual as well as practical perspective.

Some questions:

1. Can intense japa increase awareness of sexual energy that was previously being released regularly?

2. Is this considered normal in Bhairav or Shaiva sadhana?

3. Could this simply be a physical effect of suddenly reducing masturbation frequency of doing it regularly?

4. Should I reduce my daily count for some time?

5. Has anyone experienced similar sexual intensity along with pressure or energy-like sensations around the nose, eyebrow center, or forehead during mantra japa?

I am looking for serious answers from practitioners and not for arguments about whether mantra works or not.

Thank you.

I know this may sound unusual, but I am looking for sincere guidance from people who have experience with mantra sadhana, Bhairav upasana, or traditional spiritual practice.

For the last 2 months, I have been doing a Bhairava mantra japa using a digital counter. The mantra contains "Om" but no bija mantra. I come from a Shaiva family where Mahadev has been our Ishta Devata for generations, and I have received "Om" through my Upanayana Samskara, so I am not using it without initiation.

My daily count is quite high, usually around 20,000 repetitions. Due to practical circumstances, I am currently unable to use a mala regularly, so I use a digital counter instead.

The issue is that since increasing my japa count, I have been experiencing extremely intense sexual thoughts and desires. They feel much stronger than before and sometimes difficult to control.

A few observations:

• Before starting this high-count japa, I used to masturbate almost daily.

• During these last 2 months, I have only masturbated twice.

• I had one nightfall during this period.

• My girlfriend and I are in a long-distance relationship, so there is no physical outlet.

• The intensity of sexual energy seems to be increasing rather than decreasing.

Another thing I have noticed is certain physical sensations during or after japa. Sometimes I feel pressure or movement-like sensations around the tip of the nose, the bridge of the nose, and the area between the eyebrows (ajna region). At times the sensation seems to shift from one point to another. For example, I may feel pressure strongly at the nose tip, then later near the eyebrow center, while the other points become quiet. It feels almost as if something is slowly moving between these locations.

I am not claiming this is kundalini or any specific spiritual phenomenon. I am simply describing what I experience and would like to know whether others have observed something similar during prolonged mantra practice.

I am not asking whether sexuality is good or bad. I am trying to understand what may be happening from a spiritual as well as practical perspective.

Some questions:

1. Can intense japa increase awareness of sexual energy that was previously being released regularly?

2. Is this considered normal in Bhairav or Shaiva sadhana?

3. Could this simply be a physical effect of suddenly reducing masturbation frequency of doing it regularly?

4. Should I reduce my daily count for some time?

5. Has anyone experienced similar sexual intensity along with pressure or energy-like sensations around the nose, eyebrow center, or forehead during mantra japa?

I am looking for serious answers from practitioners and not for arguments about whether mantra works or not.

Thank you.