What do I do with my life?
I'm 22(f), based in India and recently completed my 4 year undergraduate course in English Literature. I'm an honours student and due to the fucked up education policies, might possibly end up with a gap year. I tried to think about what I would do after masters and I have no idea what to do. I'm not really passionate about government jobs but corporate sector also doesn't really speak to me, as I hate metro cities and prefer calm environments as opposed to a high paced life. I'm a creative person with multiple hobbies, but I'm not sure how I can monetize them without losing the spark I have for them. I crochet, embroider, make art, sketches, can make clay miniatures, and am trying to be a polyglot, as I can speak english Hindi and beginner entry level japanese and spanish (via Duolingo so idk whether that counts). I am really getting scared as time passes that my confusion regarding career paths is going to lead to me being jobless in the near future. While most of my friends are preparing for govt sector exams or going into corporate, I feel stuck and not able to understand what exactly it is that I want to do or can do. I'm a diligent student and have always been a topper and an A student. In the last four years, I have suffered a lot mental health wise and experienced a brutal burnout from overworking my body and exhaustion from a toxic relationship. I moved back home two months ago after my undergraduate ended and am looking for ways to heal my mind from constantly crying and feeling depressed. I tried to get into new skills, like skateboarding and learning Spanish. I even joined an MMA class but quit due to low energy. I am trying to get myself back and at the same time very scared of taking a gap year. My parents and family want to thrust me into different career fields that they think are the best according to society. But I'm feeling caged, helpless and very very stagnant. If this year ends up becoming a gap year for real, (as I am awaiting a possible college result) then I want to do something that will give me peace, re-energize me and also count as experience for future questions about my gap year. I want to work, but am being constantly told by my sister that once I enter the work field and earn money, I will never be able to go back to completing my education. I'm in a pickle here and feeling quite lost.
Fellow redditors, please help out.