u/cassyjahnke

I literally see it as a cult now. Spent the last 6 months in it due to severe life stress and wanting change.
While immersed in it, I always knew in the back of my head “this is stupid and not real”. But I ignored that thought because believing in this felt like a compulsion. I now know I have ocd. Watching the content and telling myself I had full control over my reality was a compulsion I used for my fearful intrusive thoughts.
Now I have severe dpdr. If you don’t know about that disorder ITS PURE HELL.
But im slowly healing.

This cult does nothing but encourage ocd, anxiety, dpdr , dissociation and harmful coping mechanisms under the guise of spirituality.
I can’t believe I let myself get to this point. I’m so mad at myself.

I know they tell you the complications are rare, but are they really?
There’s so many people on this sub talking about their horrific experiences with septal perforation, appearance changes, loss of smell, etc etc.

My surgeon wanted to do some kind of turbinate reduction but I said no just septoplasty because I will not risk ENS, idc how rare they claim it is. Not worth the risk at all.

Are any of the risks truly worth it? Even if rare? I would rather live with my issues I have now than any of the horrifying things that could happen as a result of this surgery…

I know there’s a confirmation bias going on when I read horror stories… but idk I just worry I’m being lied to about how rare these risks truly are.