u/catkittycxatcat

I've pushed aside this possibilty for a while like "oh but people definitely have it worse than me" but like idk what to do anymore.

yesterday I had to leave school early because my pain got so bad I couldn't think straight, the school nurse genuinely recommended I go to urgent care (ended up going to primary care).

I'm currently on both depo provera and norenthidrone (I was given a prescription of the latter with the instruction to use when I have breakthrough bleeding) and even on both of those medications I still get cramps, sometimes I don't even get the flow, just the cramps.

norenthindrone is the 3rd type of bc ive tried, I tried the patch first and it didn't work, then I had breakthrough bleeding on depo so they added norethindrone to my prescription to help.

Idk what I'm rlly trying to get from posting this except maybe some kind of affirmation that this isnt normal. the diagnostic process seems really hard from what I've seen, so I don't think I'll be able to pursue a diagnosis right now (especially while trying to get diagnosed for another condition)..

I feel lost, maybe if anyone else here also has bad cramps even on bc they might have tips? I've tried painkillers like ibuprofen and acetominophen in the past but they didn't do much, aleve did a little more but it still sucked everytime.

I swear I saw two posts about this already but I checked the sub and couldnt find them.

so I'm pretty sure this term exists.

whats the term for when you yume with your kin? I know autosexual is a term but it feels less kin specific

this rant is specifically about one of my kins in particular to be clear.

So I kin Oguri Cap, and I have seen several ships... and all of them feel like an insult to the complexities of my relationships.

I have several rivalries that can only be described as alterous bonds with my f/os.

I see a lot of people waterdown the intensity and the complexities of my relationships with my rivals into just "omg yuri!!" and its not that. It waters it down so much and it feels forced, it feels like people trying to force a label onto me, force my relationships into a box.

I don't have the energy to explain my alterous feelings rn but its not just 'yuri' and on the contrary we're also not 'just friends'

I'm fine with ships of literally all my other kins, almost every nonproblematic one, this kin in particular just isnt a candidate for your shipping content, I'm not dating any of my rivals.

also some people ship me and my trainer... ew, I've had two trainers in the series. Kitahara is in his THIRTIES (full grown adult man) and I'm a TEENAGER!! (15-19 ish) and if you ship me with my other trainer, Roppei... fuck off so genuinely, like I can muster a sliver of respect for people who ship me and Kitahara but Roppei is AN ELDER!

why is my fandom so weird

kinda random but I love whenever someone posts a kinlist and I can look through it and go "yeah that checks out" like obviously your kins dont have to be similar to be valid but its so cool when you can see the patterns (oh did I mention im neurodivergent and good at pattern recognition... maybe thats why I find this fun)

I always get uncomfy when I see people use my kin/s for those slime rant videos.

earlier I saw someone using kangel as their "rant avatar" (idk what to call it) and it felt rlly weird, like someone was impersonating me.

I've also felt this way about my f/os, I really dm doubles of my kins or kins of my f/os (as long as theyre chill with me) but seeing people use them like avatars makes me uncomfy.

maybe Im just more sensitive cause I've been impersonated irl before idk.

been seeing this around... and I have artblock so yah!! send refs of you and your f/o and I'll draw them (you can also send a pose ref you want), it'll just be a sketch tho... I've seen a lot of these posts blow up and I don't have time for 50+ full drawings