u/chaosbunny444

I'm in recovery and it no longers governs my life but I connected with this guy and I didn't realize how in active addiction he is and I want to spend time with him but I can't if it's going to get me to be using again , he says he wants to quit but last night I went to his place to jam some blues on guitar together and he was smoking so much I thought I'd have self control but i did some. Now I'm haggard for work again today like the million other times i did this and said I'd never again. Is it possible to be close and intimate with someone if you're in different stages of recovery? I never like anyone and I really like him and we have so much fun and I feel I can help him to stop using as much by just showing him other ways to live. But also I can't let a crush bring me down, I have to be prepared to not spend time together if it's going to be toxic for me. I don't judge where anyone is at but I also need to be realistic and not go backwards in my journey. I'm upset he gave me drugs, I went in truly not wanting to use I know my life is amazing when im not using I'm doing so well but I really have feelings for him and it feels really good to have intimacy because physical touch is really hard for me idk I'm awkward and autistic and in the process of rebuilding my confidence after 5 years of meth. I want to still see him just have concrete boundaries and be prepared to let go if he's not ready to get off meth. advice ?

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I am a gardener/tree planter by trade for the last 10 years and I have been stung a few times by wasps and bees over my entire life but last week i was stung by a bald-faced hornet and had a extreme reaction, i got hives over my entire body by entire body started swelling up my boss used her epi pen on me and drove me to the hospital (only a couple min away thankfully) and the nurses used another epipen on me and benadryl it was a relly bad reaction and i wasn't allowed to leave for 6 hours, the next day full body hives came back but 2 benadryls relieved it. today at work i got stung by a normal yellow wasp on my head and i freaked out thinking I was going to have the same extreme reaction but i only got mild full body itching, i went to the hopsital again and didn't need an epipen this time and i left after an hour. Now just 4 hours after the sting there's a swollen bump on my head but nothing crazy . Am i only allergic to hornets i donn't understand! I do have referral for an allergist through the hospital but I'm confused why I had a severe/potentially deadly reaction to a hornet but a wasp is just a minor inconvenience. Anyone have a similar experience? thank you!