u/charlestonclub

eagerly awaiting the second half of season 2, but just wanted to ask a question. do we ever know the reason why rupert and tony have such a strong rivalry, aka what happened in the past? i'm not looking for spoilers and would really prefer not to know why, but was just wondering if that is ever explained.

tia!

I am the Chaser, she is the Runner. WLW connection, but she is the DM, as I am the DF. I have let go of the connection mentally - she just had her first baby with her husband a few months ago (fun right! 😓) and I'm very happy for her - she's always wanted a baby. However, I know I am not in the right place to take care of a child, let alone a baby. So, I've let go of the connection (or at least tried to) while she was on maternity leave, and quickly left my job (in which we were coworkers) after she returned, about a week after. (for TF context, I chased for about two years before the pregnancy. she would flirt regularly, physically and emotionally, and then become cruel and avoidant, and back to flirty again. I tried multiple times to open up a conversation about where we stood, what was happening, the meaning of the flirtation/attraction - she never engaged or simply outright denied its existence. very ego based person, and non vulnerable at almost every chance, except for the few times she was, which of course sucked me in deeper 🙄 and yes, she does definitely like women.)

It's been about two months since separation began again, and i've been on the ebbs and flows of trying to focus on myself and my life. And things have been going well! I have a new job in a completely new field I'll be beginning in August, and I've been making new friends and enjoying my time off. I've taken up read*ng (crazy that's a banned word) books again, and it feels so nice to return to. I really feel like I'm coming back into myself, from a toxic job and the often toxic limerence of this connection. However, she still slips into my mind and dreams frequently during this separation. angel numbers and signs, yada yada. I'm just looking for more tips into getting into my own flow, and not hers. I'm happy for her for the life she's making, but i also keep searching for answers about her situation, what's she's thinking about me, and about her life. i feel obsessed and desperately, desperately don't want to be!!! i'm excited for my own new chapter and want to focus on it...

so, fellow Divine People, I'd love some advice about staying in my own lane. What can I do to protect my energy? How can I move forward? Do i stop watching t*rot? Any tips on meditations?

For clarity - i know she'll still pop into my head. I don't mind that, i Don't mind thinking of her and wishing her well. I just want to stop feeling like I am constantly seeking out the mysteries she left behind, constantly seeking for the answers.

Thank you!

just being beside you. seeing your beautiful face flush when i'm near. watching your gaze dart away, pretending to be looking at anything but me. the way we almost brushed when we were beside each other - i couldn't do it. not because i don't desperately want you - i do, i always do. but i know we can't. i hope you have the most wonderful day off tomorrow. i hope, selfishly, you think of me, feel me, want me. even if we can't.