u/chasingthedragonn

What is the reason behind this. Thoughts?

Eating disorders, drug use, toxic relationships.
A lot of pain and a feeling of not being in control?
Doing stupid things, that spiral out of control, takes a long while to realize is damaging and feel shame and regret.

Does anyone else struggle with 12th house placements?

Have you yourself or someone you know been possesed by reptillians?

What are the signs to watch out for?

Do you ever look back on your life and go:

What THE HELL was I thinking?

Is it I, who do this. Or am I being influenced by negative influences, archons, egregores, tulpas?

What is going on…

Why did I make bad decisions that is not in my best interest. Straight up plain foolish, dumb decisions that makes you wonder If even you are on your side?

The endless noise and mental chatter of the mind. They say the Archons gave us thier minds, the constant rumination and mental chatter DOES NOT STOP. The self mind games and confusion, wonder who is stirring the wheel. The feeling of not being in control. The battle with self. The “nervous“ system is built to torture humans.

One part of you wants to get free and the other part keep self sabotaging. With vices, habits and behaviors that are not good for us. We know IT but we do IT anyway.

Eating processed foods, masturbation, negative self talk, negligence of self, toxic relationships, gambling, doom scrolling and the thought loop of “It’s all f****, might as well”. Is it malevolent archons influencing us or do we do this to ourselves, is it a built in biological program to initiate self destruction once we start getting to the truth?

Whenever start researching the truth and get back to it always get distracted by outside circumstances. Then feel bad, shame, guilt for doing it because you know better. You think you already messed up so you go back to your old vices. One step forward, two steps back…

Berating and blaming ourselves and beating ourselves up worse than our enemies. Why do we hate ourselves. Why are we even here. Is it truly cause we got tricked, deceived, curiosity or cause we self sabotage?

Just saying this spiritual journey is like a roller coaster. Maybe some can relate?

It’s not easy.