u/chelledoggo

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I just need to come to accept this about myself. There's no hope of my mental health ever improving.

I've spent nearly my entire life going to different therapists, getting on different medications... I'm 34 years old now and have seen nearly zero improvement.

I think the fact of the matter is that I'm a lost cause. There's no "fixing" me.

I think what I need to do now is just seclude myself so that I don't bother people. My piss-poor mental health has been a burden on everyone around me, and they're making it very obvious now even if they're not right-out telling me.

I don't want any advice or empty words of encouragement. If you're going to do that, I'd prefer you not respond at all. I just wanted to get it out there.

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It wasn't right of me to generalize the entire sub just because of the actions of one person.

The truth is over the past couple days I've been in a severe mental health spiral because of the similarities I see between myself and Jax.

All the art of Jax being either forgiven or told to forgive herself was making me angry, because I felt that I didn't deserve to be forgiven or to forgive myself for the things I've done. I felt Jax didn't deserve to be saved, because I didn't deserve to be saved.

I think that motivated me to resent this subreddit, look up "r/SavingJax" on bluesky, and see that there was someone with "r/SavingJax" replying to Gooseworx. They really weren't harassing her, they were just asking questions.

But in my mental health state, I perceived it as harassment, and thought I was "justified" in calling out those who would want redemption for Jax. (and, by extension, redemption for someone like me.)

The truth is... I really do empathize with Jax. And I do wish she could've gotten redemption. But I thought that since the popular opinion was that she didn't deserve love or redemption, that that was the "correct" opinion to have, and that it also extended to myself not deserving love or redemption.

I guess you could say what I've been doing has been a weird roundabout form of emotional self-harm. Except I've been harming other people in the process, and that's not right.

I don't expect forgiveness or to be welcomed to this sub. In fact, I think it might be for the best for the mods to ban me right now, so that I can't ever cause any trouble here in the event I have another spiral. I promise I won't take it personally. It's what I deserve for what I've done.

Jax deserves redemption. Jax deserves love. Jax deserves forgiveness. And so do all of you.

I absolutely do not deserve these things.

But, still. I deeply apologize.

(34, F, mild astigmatism mostly in left eye.)

I know my eyes aren't physically changing when I have a cold. I'm just wondering if having a cold can make the visual effects of astigmatism more noticeable. Could sinus irritation be putting pressure on my eyes and making the effects of astigmatism look worse?

There's been a lot of discussion lately about the TADC movie being cancelled in South Korea and a specific chain in Australia. And there's also been a lot of discussion about people having trouble reaching Glitch Store support.

Both of these things are... pretty bad, yeah.

But people seem to be jumping the gun and assuming the worst of Kevin and Luke.

Look. I can't personally speak on the character of Kev and Luke. However, I think that these issues can be attributed to the company being short-staffed and perhaps a bit too ambitious.

I don't think they're out here like "fuck you specifically." More like they don't have anywhere near enough people to handle everything between film distribution, show production, and customer support.

And look. I do know that they've been pretty poor at handling stuff in the past, such as with the one Meta Runner VA. (Also the LatAm dub Jax VA, but I think that's more the fault of the dubbing studio.)

However, I think what's going on right now can be chalked up to Glitch perhaps being ill-equipped.

I think we should await statements from Glitch before assuming the worst case scenario. By all means, contact them with your concern, because this stuff IS very concerning, even to me.

But let's step back before we start making too many hasty assumptions.

Personally, I hope they can get more staff on board and get their shit together. Because I still wanna believe in them.