u/chrisalt87

This is for all you 37+ people out there which may not know this. I knew this disorder was progressive but didn't stop and think what that meant. Im 38 and I HATE chat gtp but thought fuck it, and it shot out an answer that actually made sense to me.

After a 4 month manic episode that required a month long hospitalization I have been was wondering why am I still angry, depressed, anxious, no memory, brain fog, no patience, empty etc etc. We'll I felt ok when I left the hospital but yeah I guess I was not fully ok.

I asked chat gtp. Is it normal to "not bounce back" or feel weird after an episode in your late 30s? It shot out that yeah its completely normal. Our brains don't act like there young anymore starting right around the late 30s. Its like trying to drink the same 6 shots you drank as a 25 year old and were fine and it now makes you hung over asf at 37.

The goal posts keep moving and im to exhausted to pivot.

Im 38, and was diagnosed at 17. I was diagnosed because I fit all 9 criteria. Long story short I fit probably 2 of the criteria at this point. That criteria is an exaggerated response to being wronged and anger.

I dont see any older people who have gotten alot better with age post. Just youths I can't relate to anymore.

Any older people out there dealing with the bpd rage or anger?

What have you done to cope?

It still effects my life and I want to crush it.

I was just in the hospital a month. I was eating their salt less food and small amounts. I lost 30lbs.

Im out a week and eating more normal and definitely more salt. My level when I left the ward was 0.96 1800mg.

I've been out 8 days and have realized I'm not acting like my self (well it was pointed out to me and yeah there right). Im also depressed asf.

I did some reading and apparently sodium from food and lithium are treated the same by the body and the more sodium you eat the more lithium clears resulting in lower levels. I think my levels have tanked since I got home and I don't see my doctor for a month.

How to you guys combat this? It doesn't seem doable to eat the same ever day if you have any sort of life.

Like ffs I'm about to toss this shit.

Im 38, and just spent 1.5 months in the psychward. I was there because I couldn't get myself to come down from a mania on my own. I tried for 4 months prior.

Im having trouble adjusting to the real world since my relase though. The weird thing is this is FAR from my 1st time being committed since the early 2000s, but this particular time I feel off?

My place feels foreign to me. I lost 25lbs while in the hospital. Im going to sleep at 11pm which was lights out and taking my meds at the same time as I was. I dont want to go outside. Im used to being contained to a small air less ward. This stuff is all among other things.

Beilve it or not ive been inpatient now 26 times since 2004. Have I become institutionalized finally?

On lithium 1800 mg- blood 0.96

Seroquel 500 mg