I was 15M and 14F performed oral sex on me
I was 15, she was 14. I was very innocent at the time, I had never done anything sexual and I wasn’t expecting anything sexual to happen that night. We hung out with friends and she was very flirty. At one point she took me into her backyard and pulled down my pants and performed oral sex on me. I was confused and not expecting it. It felt really good and I felt like I should be enjoying it. I had trouble climaxing. She tried for what felt like an hour. Finally I climaxed and went back to join the group. After that experience, I needed her. I put up with so much verbal, emotional, sometimes physical abuse, to get that feeling again. All encounters after that were initiated with sex, not kissing or other romantic events. I always suspected something was wrong about what happened to me. Rape seems like a string word for it but I wasn’t even sure if it was wrong.