u/chx4m

So basically my ex reached out to me yesterday 3 days after the breakup and apologised for hurting me and we talked for a bit. He was joking around like we usually did in the relationship and it seemed like he was even flirting a bit. Today he asked if we could do something together and i responded with 'maybe' and he seemed to get upset by that and said 'nvm' and when i asked why he said because i said maybe so i told him thats because i dont know what i'm doing later and he said 'do what you want idc' and blocked me. I don't know what to do, i know he probably did that because he felt rejected, but i don't know if he's going to unblock me. He blocked me on discord which is where we were talking and i sent a message to him in his server that's just the two of us and i think he probably saw it but he hasn't responded or removed me from/deleted that server. i'm honestly lost right now. Sorry for the rant, if anyone has any idea on what this means i would really appreciate it.

We would’ve been together for 5 months yesterday but he ended things on sunday. He tried to break up with me twice before but i would always beg him to stay and he did, but it made him feel trapped and when he ended things this time he said it’s not my fault, he just misses being on his own and that he wants to be his own person and doesn’t want someone to dictate whether they stay with him or not. I understand his point completely and i know i pushed him too far but i’m just so upset. I’ve never felt so connected with someone before and i genuinely thought we were going to have a future together, but now i feel like i’ve lost everything. I know logically i can move on and feel normal again, but really i don’t want to because i love him a lot and i don’t even want to be with anyone else again. I don’t know if he even loves me anymore though. He initiated the break up by saying he’s losing feelings and when i asked him if he still loved me he said he doesn’t think he does, that he has nothing against me and he’s willing to stay friends, but he doesn’t want a relationship now. At the same time though, he said he does still love me in a way but he just doesn’t want to be with me. He also said he still loves me but not in the way he did before to keep him in the relationship and when i pushed more and asked how he loved me he said he doesn’t need a relationship to love me. He also said that maybe in the future when we’re more stable so i really can’t tell how he feels. I don’t know if anyone will even read this really long post, but i just feel lost and needed to get it out. Sorry that it’s so disorganised, i’ll appreciate if anyone has anything to say about this.