u/cleftys23

Help

I have been clean for over a year and a half. I was on fentanyl and meth for 6 years and using intravenously the last three years of my addiction. I came to Vegas to get dental implants accompanied by my mom and sister who are both better to/for me than I deserve. I had saved up $23000 and had absolutely no concerns of relapsing or even being triggered but on my last night (tonight) I had a few beers which affected my decision making substantially and out of left field decided I was going use. So I went out on the strip, found the kind of person I was about 2 years ago, bought a hypodermic needle, secured some ice(amphetamines) and within a couple hours of getting the itch I was as high as a kite. My god is it a slippery slope. In my hometown where I live and work(Western North Carolina) the process would have been so much more difficult and is, which is why I think that this type of thought process and decision making isn’t a factor when I’m cruising at the crib. Im in my hotel room now, I’ve flushed the remaining “bad decisions” and am typing this because I’m high ask a kite and don’t know what else to do. My family is here in the hotel room with me, they have no idea. We fly home tomorrow morning and I’m hoping I can leave this all behind me