I keep on forgetting things. Could this be PTSD?
What else, if not? I am not professionally diagnosed, but there was a time that i did try to self-diagnose just to understand myself better. Hindi naman ako masyado nagdwell sa results, in my mind, as long as I can manage keri naman.
Ngayon, what bothers me is yung pagiging makakalimutin. Medyo bright naman ako nung kabataan ko (I'm in my early 30s now). I don't know if it's even worth mentioning na consistent honor student ako ever since, pero kasi meron naman na bumabawi sa later chapters in life - ang point ko lang siguro ay I can say na I "have" a good memory. Pero parang natunaw utak ko.
Like, when other people are talking about general info, sa isip ko alam ko to. Pero hindi ako agad nakakasabay. Kahit mga recent conversations lang na binabalikan... kailangan ko pa hukayin sa utak ko yung mga bagay. Kung may mga nagstick, usually yung mga panget na experience o memory. Parang may VIP seat sila sa utak ko.
Gusto ko lang naman na bumalik yung dating memory ko. Kaya pa ba to? Minsan natatakot ako, feeling ko nagsisimula na Alzheimer's sakin kahit nasa trenta pa lang ako.