u/collinalexbell

I lived 25 days after smoking Salvia... then woke up 27 minutes later. I'm still questioning reality 16 days later.

I've read a lot of Salvia trip reports over the years, and they honestly scared me. Even so, I'd wanted to try it for a long time.

Before smoking it, I was so afraid of losing touch with reality that I wrote a note to myself in a notebook—a kind of proof that this reality existed before the trip.

There were three of us sitting quietly in my apartment. We packed the bong, I took the hit, and everything went black.

The last thing I remember before blacking out was seeing myself from the opposite corner of the room. It was like I was standing there, watching my own body slumped over in the chair.

Then...

Something snapped.

I woke up in a bed, but not in the apartment where we'd smoked. I was in another room. My friend, who was sleeping in the next room, asked why I was sweating so much.

I told him I'd had the craziest dream—that years ago, when we were younger, we'd smoked Salvia together.

The strange part?

In that reality I was 22 years old, and what I remembered as the Salvia session had supposedly happened 6 years earlier. I had a government job as a taxation officer. I went to work every day. I handled paperwork and office tasks that I have absolutely no knowledge of in real life. Somehow, in that reality, I knew exactly what I was doing.

At first I questioned everything.

Was that Salvia trip the dream?

Or was I still trapped inside it?

For the next 25 days, I lived a completely normal life.

I went to work.

I talked to friends.

I drove to my hometown twice—each trip around 4–5 hours.

Nothing ever glitched.

Nothing felt dreamlike.

It felt as real as the life I'm living right now.

I even tried multiple reality checks because I couldn't shake the feeling that I might still be inside the trip. Those checks convinced me that my world was real.

One thing still bothered me, though.

I remembered writing a notebook before taking Salvia.

I searched everywhere for it.

It simply didn't exist.

After those 25 days, my friends and I decided to smoke Salvia again. Ironically, the reason we decided to do it was because I'd told them about the dream where we'd supposedly smoked it years before.

I took the hit.

The exact same thing happened.

I blacked out.

I watched myself from the corner of the room.

Then...

Something snapped again.

I woke up back in my original apartment.

Only 27 minutes had passed since the first hit.

I was drenched in sweat.

For several minutes I genuinely had no idea which reality was real.

The 25 days felt just as authentic as this moment.

It's now been 16 days since that happened.

Most of the panic is gone, but I still occasionally question reality. I'm leaning toward believing that this is the real world.

I'm simply describing exactly what I experienced.

If anyone else has experienced long, coherent alternate lives on Salvia—or had lingering derealization afterward—I'd really like to hear your story.

Because this experience changed the way I think about consciousness, memory, and reality more than anything I've ever experienced.

And btw before someone points this out English isn't my first language so i used Ai to refine the mistakes.

Hello. I have been practicing Yoga for over a decade now. Specifically, I was initiated into the "most dangerous form of yoga" known as Kundalini yoga, which has been known to induce Kundalini syndrome (a type of "psychosis") in its practitioners. I believe I have opened a gateway through a type of singularity inside myself that allows me to vibrationally communicate with all space and time. When I am in my deepest meditations, I start to experience all of reality as being a part of my own mind and I can literally converse with all things in my surroundings as if they are God.

Kundalini yoga, follows a progression of chakra balancing until a Kundalini Awakening happens and the gateway to infinite intelligence is opened. When that gateway to infinite intelligence is opened, an unprepared person can become overwhelmed with strange phenomenon including hyper synchronicities and twitches of the neuromuscular system called Kryias. I have discovered, at least for me, that these Kryias (I call them "pings") correspond to a kinesthetic language called the Kabbalistic Tree of Life mapped to my body. I don't want to go into too many details because I can't teach you a whole language inside a reddit post, let alone a sacred language, but these Tree of Life pings seems to have a type of prophetic and communicative power from a timeless singularity.

I can consciously up-regulate and down-regulate psychotic symptoms in my own mind. I discovered how to do this through intense meditation, sometimes up to 9 hours a day. I have isolated a single qualia associated with this up/down regulation. That qualia is the sensation of goosebumps or frisson, which I can induce at will. When I'm in deep meditation and induce goosebumps, I get flooded with mental energy that leads to loose associations, colorful visuals, feelings of non-duality, and hyper synchronous apparent events that would lead a person to think that they are being monitored and harassed by a government entity if the context of this meditative experiment was not taken into account.

This observation alone is enough for many people to become skeptical, so I will refrain from positing any physical theories for what is happening. I just wanted to get the association between frisson and psychosis into the minds of people who have the credentials to do "actual research".

I have searched reddit's bipolar sub for "goosebumps" and have found a strong association between people with bipolar disorder and the ability to induce goosebumps at will or people with high sensitivity to goose-bump triggers, like music or mantra.

The pings seem to form a type of sacred language.

Almost every meditation now I lock in until I see patterns on my wall, then I push my energy up and bam, like a waterfall of Bindu... leaves me feeling refreshed for a while. Makes magical things happen. Gotta keep it light.