I'm getting my first one on Tuesday and I'm worried, I've never put anything up there or in that position. I don't wear skirts or dresses so I'm a little worried plus something going up, it's worrying me
I really wanna start living fully, I'm 19 and have felt like I'm just surviving my whole life. I'm neurodivergent and can't really go outside without being terrified or need my mum around. I wanna start volunteering myself to help the elderly and homeless. But I'm afraid. I just wanna help people and actually live, be proud of myself and not live in regret, my mental health is genuinely taking over my life but I'm not ready to leave yet.
I always feel guilty for everything I do, even if I don't do anything wrong
I feel guilty telling people I appreciate their work and that their content helps me because I feel annoying
I feel guilty for being honest about my mental health because I don't want to burden others
I feel guilty for living and containing living after my nans death, and still silently struggling with it till this day
I feel guilty for being closed off
I feel guilty for only feeling comfortable with a few people in my family to give affection too
I hate living like this, I'm the type just to tell people thank you, especially like people who keeps me going, I don't know, I just send without thoughts and then I feel guilty for doing it, I know I don't know them in real life, so I feel terrible and annoying for sending the message. I hate how my mum ignores me a lot and takes her stuff out on me and just me. I hate how I'm stuck living in a continuous spiral because I cant make the first step out of this because of my mental health, physical health and how my brain works. I just feel so hopeless right now
So, I have the depo shot Tuesday, but I've figured out it causes mood disorder, increased depression and anxiety, I'm on anti depressants and I already have those. I have suspected endometriosis and nothing helps for me, I'm looking into trying to stop my periods or help it, what type should I reconsider?
I need motivation to keep going