scared of dependency
i have been doing IV infusions for relief for by BP1. my provider does 6 sessions and i just finished my last one a week ago. i didn’t start seeing the effects until like the 4-6 sessions, and now i don’t know what im going to do now that my sessions are completed.
for example, my provider went out of town for a week, between sessions 3 and 4, which pushed back one session and i feel into a pretty bad depressive episode during that time.
i have noticed less dissociation and more energy and relief since my last session, im just scared of the crash.
also, im going to miss having 2 hours of time set aside per week to just relax and have my infusion done.
does anyone have any advice on how to manage when trying to get off ketamine? i don’t want to have to rely on it to get better.