Will I ever be loved?
So l'm a 19(M) from CU central campus, first year. Been like 2 months on to the christ..
Roaming around the campus always seeing people having groups enjoying together.. clicking photos making reels.. enjoving food.. and here is iust me and my earbuds and is listening music without any intrest and seeing peoples and their groups and always questioning myself im not capable of it.. (syad kuch desereve nhi krta mai ) its not like ive not approached any people from my class.... ive approched them 1days 2days 3days 4days daily.. and on 5th days when im hoping they would be come from front and say hello to me ! Thev ignore me :(,no energy left to approach someone at last ik would be getting hurt and ignored... everbody on my class has a group.. ive tried to fit on it.. but i cant.... syad im not capable of it.. seeing two opposite genders roaming around... makes me feel sayd i dont deserve anv of these..im not capable...
Always sitting on the canteen alone , seeing people enjoving their meals with their freinds make me fee so low.. cuz i also want someone.. to spend time with but highkey its not possible..
On my birthday when i was on campus at morning. nobody have wished me (even my family)..
Js sitting alone on the stone bench near centra block and seeing groups laughing together, clicking photos and i was js scrolling reels ust to divert my mind to how lonely im.. wiping my tears.. worst b'day of my life...
Same condition now.. nothing changed.. bs khud ko dilasa deta hu.. im strong enough to be alone... but ir im not... khair anyways if vou readed till hear.. love vou buddy idk who vou are.But. thanks