u/coyote_7353_

Major TW for this

I don’t know if this is the right place to post this, I don’t know what too do. I think my mom tried to hurt me. I need advice and opinions about what just happened, I think I'm still in shock. Recently I was prescribed an emotional support animal to help with my suicidal ideation, depression, and autism. I was talking to my mom in the car about wanting a cat while on the way too my psychiatrist for my antidepressants. I was trying too see if my mom could postpone the appointment because I had just gotten back from a trip and I was very jet lagged. She then started yelling at me about how much money she has wasted on me (for context she sent me too wilderness therapy and a therapeutic boarding school in 2019 when I was 11 which costed a lot of money and had no real benefit to my mental health) and how her worst fear is being stuck with gross animals when I kill myself since a cat won't help me. She then started to drive very very fast going 84 mph through a busy residential street with a 30mph speed limit. I asked her to slow down and she called me a pussy and started going fasted weaving between cars. I started crying and she kept yelling at me about how she wished she never adopted a mentally retarded child and she told me she wished my attempts had worked so she wouldn’t have to pretend to care about me and that I should thank her for what she was about to do. Then she made a u-turn at a busy intersection on a red light and we almost got hit by multiple cars but thankfully we did not get hurt. Eventually she slowed down but I am still terrified. I've never heard her talk about me like that and I think she doesn't love me and wants me to die. I think she wants me to commit suicide. Its been a few hours I don't know how too feel, I can't stop crying. What should I do? Do I tell someone? Do I just try to forget about it?