u/crawfishly

As the title says. The things in quotation marks are direct quotes lol

"Based on this evaluation, [crawfishly's] symptoms are consistent with a primary diagnosis of a Dissociative Disorder. More particularly their experiences of severe symptoms of amnesia, depersonalisation, derealisation, along with moderate symptoms of identity confusion and identity alteration are consistent with a diagnosis of Otherwise Specified Dissociative Disorder (OSDD). See attached diagnostic worksheet for Otherwise Specified Dissociative Disorder. The clinical presentation of OSDD is similar to Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) but at the time of assessment there did not seem to be two or more distinct personality states that take executive control of the body at different times."

Apparently amnesia was scored severe and so was depersonalisation and derealisation, identity confusion and alteration was both scored as moderate which surprised me because I dont feel all that confused or altered.

I also apparently appeared to whisper to myself? At least enough for them to have included it in the report. I dont remember whispering to myself??? Why the fuck would I have been whispering?????

Oh and this part tickled me a bit (specifically the humour comment)

"Throughout the assessment, there were minimal intra-interview dissociative cues observed. There were nuanced shifts in affect and language use, there were a couple of times when [crawfishly] whispered to themself.

Overall, I had the impression that there was a high degree of both disconnection from the emotional meaning and impact, and at some point, some incongruence between the examples of being hurt by others or urges to hurt others (swinging the branch and iPad) and [crawfishly's] humour at these times."

Anyhow I dont know how i feel about this. It wasn't not unexpected but I was also expecting to be told I dont have anything wrong with me and I need to get a grip. So. Yay? In some sections when they quoted me they misspelled my friends names sigh

I guess its a good thing I dont feel very emotional about this? Should I be? I think im feeling mostly confused since this wasn't expected...