Started with the titans in aluminum but quickly realized they were far too large for my hands. Started collecting some alternatives via the discord marketplace and splurged on the mini greys new! This hobby is really healing for me beyond just being fun. I’ve got a micro kbone comjng too (I got a clone on Ali express for the regular one but toooo big for me).
Started hrt in March with a great provider and initially had a bunch of nausea with progesterone but we slowly went up on dose and it had largely resolved. And everything else was sooooo good I went for follow up and felt like my brain was my own again and my list of problems was so much better. Only complaints were some fatigue and low libidio as well as acne and low grade nausea still. She cut the estrogen patch dose and added testosterone. The nausea started escalating again with cramping and I was exhausted so I thought t-flu so she lowered the testosterone dose and laid out a slow escalation plan. Nausea and cramping didn’t improve after a week I think actually worse. Like I am living on rice and ginger ale and am stuck to my heating pad. I reached out about the nausea and didn’t even think to mention the little bit of joint pain. I heard back to half the progesterone but before I could even do that the joint pain escalated to pre-hrt level nearly incapacitating and multiple joints at once. And then I cut the progesterone last night and now I’m super anxious and nauseated and in pain. And I feel like I was doing so well and now I have gone off a cliff somehow.
I reached out and am waiting to hear back. I think it’s the estrogen getting lowered and uterine cramping and prostaglandins causing nausea not the progesterone but I am not the expert. I’m just very frustrated and despairing as I can’t just have weeks where I don’t function as we try to find the perfect mix and I was feeling soooo good and now it feels like I am falling apart. And I know some of the despair is from dropping the gaba but also this is so unfair and I need to vent and maybe hear that this stops being a roller coaster??
Thanks to anyone who read all this.