u/deepdowntyler

… and I almost cracked today. Still not off the hook, but something someone said on here rang true.. “whatever problems you’re dealing with causing you to want to get high, will be 10 times worse tomorrow”

I’m far enough removed from it that I can’t remember why I quit in the first place (yes I can, major anxiety disorder), but I can’t feel the anxiety anymore so there’s that. Basically have cravings because of the boredom. I miss cruising and smoking with one of my only friends. But I have to remember that I cannot be a pot head any longer, and if I do use today I’ll need to use tomorrow and so on until I’m freaking out again. 45 days feels huge, but when looking at the number in the title it feels small. So I gotta keep trucking in order to get to the next phase of my life.

Stay strong out there folks.