My sleep schedule is fukked.. i can't sleep without fapping.. and i get depressed at night, I haven't moved on from my ex and it's so hard...
Why dose this have to be so hard?
Sometimes i get suicidal thoughts not because of my ex. Its because of my overall life.. it would be better if i didn't born
So i was watching dexter and almost in every episode there is sex scene.. it's not just in dexter it's everywhere.. even in breaking bad
Whenever I go to take a shower, I notice hair fall. Sometimes, it is a lot. Maybe it's because I don’t use shampoo regularly. And today, when I went, the hair fall was even more, more then 100 ig
Last night i fapped.. i was depressed and didn't know what to do thats why i lost... Its so hard for me to sleep without fapping..
Im starting again today is day 1.
I hate when girls and boys who are my age are in relationship and they are happy.. and there parents are fine letting there child be in relationship.
In my country parents don't agree when it comes to relationship (gf,bf)
I had a ex gf , her brother found out about it and we had to need relationship.. why dose it always happens to me?
I just wanted to be loved..
i do have masterbation addiction and pr ,it's because im depressed...
I never look at any women with lustfull eyes.. i don't even stare at any women more then 2 second or don't even look
Ik having gf will not fix everything but ik this much it will make me happy
So today i decided to stop watching porn and masterbation.. i been watching porn and masterbating daily and it ruined my life.. but not anymore... I will start again and this time i will be strong..
I deleted my old reddit account cuz i was following lots of porn content.. and this is my new account & i will use it for my own good like photography, drawing tips and study...
And i won't be active on this server cuz i don't wanna put my attention on not fapping cuz it will just make me more horny sometimes
And i promise to my self I won't watch porn . Even if i fap after a month i will not watch porn.. and i will notify you guys when i relapse
And my main goal is to not watch porn
Im 18 and sometimes i feel like i have low testosterone cuz sometimes i don't get hard in morning.. 🤧
I would appreciate if you guys give me some tips..
Thanks for reminding my story.. and sorry for my bad english..