She's going on a new, deeper pot soon. But I wanted to check here if she's looking good and healthy. I def need to cut off the dead traps at the bottom but I will do so once I change the pot.
Also I just moved her to a sunny spot (on my main house she uses grow lights), so let's see how it goes
(Idk what to do with the dead flies carcasses. I dont want to accidentally close the trap lol)
I'm 18 years old. I have struggled with selfharm since 10. Left with deep emotional trauma after a 3 years long toxic and abusive relationship, from 12 to 16 years old. Probably neurodivergent but undiagnosed. Medicated for depression and anxiety
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I've always been a good student. Pretty nice grades, everyone proud of me. I'm currently in 1st year of pharmacy school. I haven't passed a single exam. Not even one. At first I just let it pass: it will improve, i said. 5 exams from finishing the first year and I still have not passed anything and fuck i'm tired of acting like its okay. I feel like a disappointment. I was smart, where is that now? What happened? I'm being evaluated for dyscalculia and they already detected optometry related issues that mess with my learning but still, I have managed all my life, why not now? I failed the theory driving exam four fucking times when people usually pass it the first attempt. I miss when my parents were proud of me. They are not mad but I know they expect more. "The next time" but when is that next time i will do something right. If I dont pass something, I will be kicked out of my career and I don't want to imagine what would happen.
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I messed up my friendship with my best friend. She has a very strong personality, i know that, i've known her for years. We started going to school together this year and for some reason, seeing each other everyday changed something. I always feel she's mad at me. Like im a bother to her. I get extremely nervous over face to face conversations so I texted her about it but she's tired of me texting those things instead of talking it directly. I know she's right but I can't bring myself to talk when there's a lump on my throat and i feel im going to collapse right there
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We never had a big fight or anything. Just small things. Small things that she didnt communicate properly, i think. And now we are on 'no-contact' for a bit. Is it working? I have no idea. But I feel alone. I don't have many friends, and close friends I have two: Her, and our other friend. That's it. I feel like a bother. Like I mess things up every single time. I don't realize when I bother someone. I dont realize when someone is mad at me. I feel im walking on shells every single day around everyone because i'm scared and i don't know why but its killing me.
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When I was in my abusive relationship, I used to spam him with messages when I needed him. That was the only way for him to answer me or get some attention. The attention was getting yelled at or blocked, knowing he would treat me "better" afterwards. I knew that was wrong of me too, but I was a child and he was 3 years older than me.
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But now as an adult I feel i'm still messing things up the same way. I panic when my best friend is online and won't read my message for hours. "What if shes mad at me what if i did something wrong is she okay". Then i text again to check. Or maybe call her. And she's tired of that and fuck i get it i would be mad too i think, but I just need her right now. She knows all about me but I feel i no longer know all about her. I'm exhausted. Im tired. Im sad. Im scared. I'm trying to fix everything and acknowledge every mistake so i dont mess up again but my mental state is currently gone and for gods sake i just need a shoulder that I don't seem to have.
11yo female maltese, 4kg. Sorry for the vague title but i didnt want to make it huge
She fully chews any hard food (her usual dry food, or hard treats in general), but when it comes to soft food like banana or chicken, she barely chews and eventually throws up the entire piece (I give her small and thin pieces)
I commented this with her vet, she's fully healthy, but i'd like to know if someone else struggled with this because she adores chicken and fruit :(
This is a problem that has happened since she was a pup, even with hard food (which I eventually managed to fix), but now that she's older her stomach is way more sensitive and anything not fully chewed upsets her stomach.
Should I just mash up the food? Because it's easy for fruit but the chicken is more complicated because even with it shredded she might throw up. Not a big problem I can just avoid those foods, but sometimes her appetite goes down and will only eat something different.
I always struggled with skin picking, specially on my scalp, fingers, face... But this one is pretty new. I've been struggling for weeks, I keep putting on bandaids, ointments, anything to stop the picking but I always get back to it even worse and its really painful. Any advice so this can heal faster? I'm so tired of it
I'm a 1st year pharmacy student with dyscalculia which is already ironic on its own. Pharmacy was never an option that I thought about, but I fell in love with it (despite failing all exams).
I have on mind two branches for when I graduate: Clinical analysis, and forensic toxicology
I absolutely ADORE forensics. However I can't find much online. I can't find salaries, where to work, anything. I just know it's a possibility in my country (Spain). Does someone know more about it or where to find more information? Recommendations?
This pot came with a mossy-like cover over the substrate and I thought nothing of it, but now it's growing some mold and i'm not sure of how to get rid of it :[
I think it's time to repot it now that it grew a lot more + it's looking healthy, and I'm pretty sure it will help with the mold? But i dont know how to safely change the pot without damaging it
(I'm keeping it indoors because natural sun doesn't hit on my balcony, the current spot is the one where most of the sun hits and it's still not a lot. I try to light it ~6h everyday.)