Am I bisexual? Attracted to my male friend??? HELP!!!!!!!!!
Hi.
I'm a lesbian (or so I thought) and I became close friends with a male (ew) coworker recently (he knows I identify as a lesbian). We had hung out outside of work multiple times and one night decided to go to a bar (as friends). We had quite a few drinks and ended up making out for an hour. This was the first time I had ever kissed a man. The day after I let him know that I was very conflicted.
This guy is super funny and we get along perfectly. We are literally the same person; it's crazy. If he were a woman, I would 100% date him. He has been very understanding throughout this whole process. After a few days, I went to his house (sober) and we watched a movie, cuddled and made out again. It didn't feel the same as kissing a woman and I told him the day after that I didn't think I could do it. I felt really bad, but again he was understanding. We've texted every day nonstop for the last month and we've hung out a few more times since the sober kissing.
Basically, I'm just super confused. I don't have sexual attraction towards men but romantically, this guy is perfect. I ask him why he couldn't have been born a woman every day. I don't know what to do. I've identified as lesbian for approximately 4 years and I'm losing my mind over here. I really don't think I could ever be physically intimate with a man but this guy genuinely seems like my soulmate.
Tips?