Im scrunchy, not completely crunchy, and most definitely cannot afford to consistently buy expensive brands.
Im 100% going to be getting the brand freestyle for size new born and maybe 1 box of freestyle size 1 but after that with the remainder of size 1 and beyond i need something that is more financially realistic.
I want to avoid rashes and blowouts!
I have been struggling a lot lately with having sex with my fiancé. My sex drive is high but as soon as we start actually doing it i instantly get out of the mood because i feel so disgusting. And no i dont want to hear "the baby doesnt know" because I KNOW. It feels like the most fucked up form of violation to my baby, and as someone who is already fiercly protective its been making me feel like a bad disgusting mother. To me it feels the same as if we were to have sex with her on the same bed she is lying on when she arrives. Its just absolutely disgusting in my eyes. My fiance and I were having sex today, and i started having a panic attack, it's especially bad because she is a very active baby, and i can feel him and her at the same time and it makes me want to puke out of pure awfulness. I cannot possibly pretend she isnt in there. I feel so bad for my man but he is SO understanding and sweet, he held me and calmed me down today while i was hysterical, he would never push the idea of us doing it, but i still have 4 months to go, and i WANT TO but when the reality of it hits while its actually happening its a living nightmare. As she grows bigger i get more and more disgusted and feel extreme guilt when we do it. :(
I DONT JUDGE ANYONE WHO DOESNT FEEL THIS WAY, BUT THIS IS JUST GENUINELY SOMETHING IVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH.
I am currently creating a birth playlist and this artist may be pretty niche/unknown to most but ive added a lot of Tony Jones, she "sings" affirmational music, all of her songs are practically just manifestation affirmations for woman/becoming your best/higher self/self love, positive outlook on womanhood. I LOVE her, i want to add more songs to my playlist that are similar to her.
Some of my fav songs by her is: Wombmanifesto, IAM Worthy, The present is woman, worth ethic, High Commodity, Yoni
I am so inlove with my baby girl already and im still only 20 weeks pregnant UGHHH !!!! i literally cannot wait to meet her. i just want her here so badly. i dont know how im going to wait another entire 20 weeks. I just want to cuddle her and see her face and watch her sleep and watch her grow. Pregnancy sucks so much and i just want to get to the good part. im so excited for the first skin to skin, our first moment seeing eachother, first time her dad holds her skin to skin, bringing her home, hearing her little noises. I JUST CANT WAIT FOR ALL OF IT. I love her so much my beautiful Brielle. I am already so proud of her, she is so perfects and amazing. I cant contain it, when i feel her little kicks i want to cry because i love her so much. Anyone else just get to that point in pregnancy like WOW my baby is REALLY REAL, and just melt into so much love? I LOVE MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!
I always knew from the start that I will NOT be posting my baby on social media because of creeps and also just protecting my babies energy. What I wasnt expecting was that same F'd up energy could be portrayed on my pregnancy as well. I was posting pregnancy/bump update videos on my youtube channel for future me to watch and i got this EXTREMELY disturbing comment that said "You need to open it with a >!knife!< and enjoy". My heart DROPPED. Never in my life have i been so scared for myself and my baby, i immediately took down all pregnancy-related videos from public social media's. Apparently, that specific thing that person described is a >!kink!<. And ESPECIALLY after the Epstein Files. I genuinely felt that i HAD to share this with other pregnant mama's to be a reminder of the dangers of social media.
Im just hitting that 20 week mark and feel like i should start planning and making reservations/sending our invites, sooooo, im trying to plan out my babymoon, baby shower, and maternity shoot, now.
here is what i had planned so far but im not sure:
let me know what you think of this timeline. Thank you!