u/dottythedot

This is really embarrassing for me posting this, please be kind. I honestly don't want to be here anymore, this month will be my last month. The last thing I want to lose my virginity. I’ve never been in a relationship, part of it is because of my poor mental health. And the other part is I have low self esteem, I’ve never been confident. 

These past 10 years I’ve been in some unfortunate situations, thus I’ve been surviving, not living. I’m in my late 20s now and I’ve never experienced life. It’s embarrassing.

I long for physical touch, it’s become unbearable. I’m getting so desperate. I’m thinking of downloading Hinge just to hook up with someone. I don’t care if my experience ends up being bad or good. I am scared of getting Hinge though, smh, I’m scared of everything. I know this post comes off of me whining. I just, I don’t know what to do anymore. Be 25 and older please.