Estranged from family but....
I (35f) have been estranged from my family for 6 years. By this I mean my mum, my younger sister, cousins, aunties and uncles etc. I have kept in low contact with my nana but I don't think the rest of the family are aware of this. Anyway, I received a call from my nana today to say she is quite unwell (the big C) as she is in her 80s I doubt there is a lot to be done. I am quite upset by this and am now feeling ashamed and guilty that I haven't been about more over the last few years.
I do want to stress though that I made no NC and low contact decision for my own mental health and stand by the decision. However, I now feel an urge to message my sister and I don't know why. I know she visits my nana every week so they are quite close. Our mum lives abroad but to my knowledge they (my mum and sister) have a good relationship.
Should I get in touch? I'm completely torn because I don't want the door to be opened for a full blown relationship again but I want her to know that I care and want to help wherever I can. Help please!