Vulnerability re: my practice / nonstop struggle since rayamiento
I received my elekes in 2021 with my madrina and things immediatly started changing in my life, I've gone through a lot and have had so many ups and downs but my faith in Oricha got me through. It was coming up in Misa and in dilogun that I should get scratched and in 2023 my madrina took me to cuba to get my baja del santo and to do my rayamiento. I found Elegua had my head which makes sense but since then my life, the last 3 years and counting have been complete chaos, housing instability, moving over 15 times, things getting stolen from me, getting arrested for something I didn't do, my health has gotten bad, things breaking over and over again. I try my best to adhere to my ewes in my readings but I just feel cursed. It doesn't come up that I am in readings but life has just been so difficult. So difficult to the point thats leaving my questioning my own faith bc why would they allow this to happen to me. I recieved my Olokun last September in Cuba and it was a really beautiful ceremony but things just kept getting bad. I try to talk to my madrina but shes been a bit out of commision. I just feel lost and feel like im losing faith. i dont want to suffer and struggle anymore.