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Im sorry to let you and mom down. Im sorry to let everyone down. Im going through a breakup that is destroying me. Im 24 M and it’s my first ever relationship and breakup. I feel like such a failure because I loved her and I still do. The last 3 weeks I haven’t had motivation to do anything so im sorry :( I just oversleep a lot and even when I’m awake I don’t want to do anything but lay in bed.

I just feel like such a failure, I have a job working at a popular restaurant, but all my job applications for what I really wanna do are unsuccessful. My relationship with family isnt the best. Almost all my friends have moved away. The woman I love doesn’t want me and I can’t help but feel it’s my fault even though she said the breakup is not because of anything I did.

I haven’t gone to the gym since the breakup and have only been able to hang out with friends once since. I cry every single day and my overthinking about what I could’ve done different is insane. I would do anything to have her back. The days I have off from work I spend just lying in bed and crying. I don’t know what to do, im scared dad.

Im sorry for being a failure to everyone :(

It’s been weighing on my mind so heavy, im sorry Rachelle

I just need to vent. This breakup is destroying me. I wish I could tell you all this:

Ever since that horrible horrible night I can’t get this idea out of my head. Ik you said it’s not my fault and it was the physical distance but I can’t help but feel a void of a pit in my stomach that if I had been able to visit none of this would’ve happened. That If we had been able to physically go out on dates, if we could hold hands, hug, kiss thst we would still be together. And I have so so so much fucking regret for not being able to. More regret than I’ve ever had for anything in my life. I should’ve asked you every single call, every single day, every week to plan when we could see each other, eirher you fly here or me there. And I hate myself for it. I hate myself so much for it. I feel like the absolute stupidest person on the planet for not pushing so hard to visit you when I wanted to see you and be with you more than anything. I know the first month we started dating you were basically swamped with the whole school trip and preparing for that and then the last 2 months u were stormed with finals, job seeking, graduation, family stuff. But I still should’ve pushed as often as possible.

So my question is, if I had visited, would we still be together? I know it’s hard to answer on a what if, but please im begging you with everything please try to envision if we had. would we still be together?

About 10 days ago I got dumped but I feel so stupid. For context, me 23, and her 24, had been dating for about half a year and I thought things were going good so the breakup came out of nowhere on my side. She broke up with me because she had just graduated and gotten her bachelors degree and managed to get job right out of college thanks to her internship. So her new job and adapting to all of that plus the physical distance between us was too hard on her. She said the reason for the breakup wasn’t anything I did or didn’t do but we were never Mets.

I feel so so so so fucking stupid. When we first starting dating, the first month was pretty hectic for her because of school so I was unable to visit her. And then of course near the end of the relationship adapting to everything was very stressful for her so maybe not the best time. But god I feel like the biggest idiot on this planet.

Im sorry im sorry im sorry. I should’ve tried harder, I should’ve pushed every single day, every single week, every call, to plan when I could visit you. I fucked up so bad. Why didn’t I push harder. Maybe if I did and I visited you a couple times we still would’ve been together. We both wanted to hug and cuddle and hold hands. Why didn’t I push. Why am I so stupid. Why did I fuck up so bad. Im sorry. Im sorry. Im sorry.

I have been feeling completely nauseous the last week thinking about this. Maybe if I did we would’ve still been together. I’m such a dumbass im sorry Rachelle

About 10 days ago I got dumped but I feel so stupid. For context, me 23, and her 24, had been dating for about half a year and I thought things were going good so the breakup came out of nowhere on my side. She broke up with me because she had just graduated and gotten her bachelors degree and managed to get job right out of college thanks to her internship. So her new job and adapting to all of that plus the physical distance between us was too hard on her. She said the reason for the breakup wasn’t anything I did or didn’t do but we were never Mets.

I feel so so so so fucking stupid. When we first starting dating, the first month was pretty hectic for her because of school so I was unable to visit her. And then of course near the end of the relationship adapting to everything was very stressful for her so maybe not the best time. But god I feel like the biggest idiot on this planet.

Im sorry im sorry im sorry. I should’ve tried harder, I should’ve pushed every single day, every single week, every call, to plan when I could visit you. I fucked up so bad. Why didn’t I push harder. Maybe if I did and I visited you a couple times we still would’ve been together. We both wanted to hug and cuddle and hold hands. Why didn’t I push. Why am I so stupid. Why did I fuck up so bad. Im sorry. Im sorry. Im sorry.

I have been feeling completely nauseous the last week thinking about this. Maybe if I did we would’ve still been together. I’m such a dumbass im sorry Rachelle

my first girlfriend just broke up with me 2 days ago and it really hurts. Im 23M and she’s 24F and we were friends for over a year before we started falling for each other, but she quickly grew into one of my closest friends. We were only together for a little under half a year but it hurts so so much. We were long distance so we couldn’t do much of the typical couple stuff, but I was wanting to so incredibly bad.

She broke it off because she said the distance was too difficult and she has some big changes in her life. I guess I was one of those changes. She was so smart, kind, funny, so hardworking, and one of the prettiest women I’ve ever laid my eyes on. She still is all of that. I can’t and haven’t been able to do anything but lay in bed and cry. I’ve been calling out of work cause I can’t work like this and im draining through my PTO.

Why wasnt I enough? The distance was so hard for me too, so incredibly hard and I always missed her but she was worth the pain and effort. Just being able and looking forward to spending more time with her was enough to push me through the pain. So why wasnt I enough? She made me feel things I’ve never felt before with other crushes. It hurts so so so so so so so badly. I’ve never felt like this before. I just want her back. I want her to want me backShe was my first everything ever. Why am I so unloveable? Ive been praying to god that I would wake up and this would all just be some awful nightmare. I don’t know what to do 😭

im sorry for being a failure. Im sorry that I wasn’t enough. Im sorry I couldn’t do more. Im sorry we couldn’t close the distance quick enough. Im sorry for everything. Maybe if I had done things differently this wouldn’t have happened.

Hi dad, my first girlfriend just broke up with me 2 days ago and it really hurts. Im 23M and she’s 24F and we were friends for over a year before we started falling for each other, but she quickly grew into one of my closest friends. We were only together for a little under half a year but it hurts so so much. We were long distance so we couldn’t do much of the typical couple stuff, but I was wanting to so incredibly bad.

She broke it off because she said the distance was too difficult and she has some big changes in her life. I guess I was one of those changes. She was so smart, kind, funny, so hardworking, and one of the prettiest women I’ve ever laid my eyes on. She still is all of that. I can’t and haven’t been able to do anything but lay in bed and cry. I’ve been calling out of work cause I can’t work like this and im draining through my PTO.

Why wasnt I enough? The distance was so hard for me too, so incredibly hard and I always missed her but she was worth the pain and effort. Just being able and looking forward to spending more time with her was enough to push me through the pain. So why wasnt I enough? She made me feel things I’ve never felt before with other crushes. It hurts so so so so so so so badly. I’ve never felt like this before. I just want her back. I want her to want me backShe was my first everything ever. Why am I so unloveable? Ive been praying to god that I would wake up and this would all just be some awful nightmare. I don’t know what to do dad 😭

im sorry for being a failure. Im sorry that I wasn’t enough. Im sorry I couldn’t do more. Im sorry we couldn’t close the distance quick enough. Im sorry for everything. Maybe if I had done things differently this wouldn’t have happened.