ouch
My ex and I broke up almost 2 years ago, pero we would still see each other from time to time. Kapag nagkikita kami, parang mag-jowa pa rin naman ang trato namin sa isa’t isa. I still love him, and alam kong mahal pa rin niya ako noon, but I just couldn’t bring myself to fully commit to him again kasi masyado pa magulo buhay ko due to some personal problems. I don’t want to settle down while I have a lot on my plate, and I certainly don’t want him to keep waiting around for something na walang assurance kasi sobrang unfair ‘yun for him. He’s a great person and he’s always been kind to me, pero I know I caused him a great deal of pain na rin talaga. I kept telling him na he was free naman to date other girls. He rarely responded na to my messages last month, and na-mention nga niya na he was dating someone na. Then ayun na nga, I got this text. Alam ko naman na ako rin ang nag-push sa kanya to meet other people pero ang sakit-sakit din pala talaga!!!!!????? Hahahaha. Siguro I just didn’t expect na it would be this soon, but then again… kasalanan ko rin naman talaga. It just hurts to realize that I was blessed with the kind of love that others only dream of, but I was just too foolish to appreciate it and way too much of a coward to fight for it.