Hej!. Macie jakieś polecajki miejsc w Lublinie, gdzie można posłuchać jazzu albo ogólnie muzyki na żywo?
Widziałam koncerty w CSK, ale chodzi mi bardziej o kameralny [?] klimat?
Dzięki!
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I failed something that was really important to me, and it feels like my life is crumbling because of it.
I've struggled with my mental health before, and I genuinely thought I had moved past this stage of my life. I thought I had outrun these feelings. But after this failure, everything seems to be coming back.
I feel miserable, incompetent, uncertain about my future, and exhausted. It's like all the progress I made suddenly disappeared. Every day feels heavy. I keep thinking about everything I did wrong and everything that could go wrong next.
What scares me most is that I'm having those troubling thoughts again. I don't know how to carry all of this anymore. I feel hopeless and lost.
Part of me wants to run away from everything and just go home, wherever "home" is supposed to be. I want to stop feeling like a disappointment. I want the constant fear and shame to end.
I just needed to tell someone how bad things feel right now.
I made a similar post in January and somehow I'm still here, feeling just as lost.
I don't have the energy or the will to keep going. Even taking care of myself has become difficult again.
I've slipped back into old coping mechanisms, and it's been months. I keep hoping I'll snap out of it, but I just keep spiraling.
I'm scared. I feel so alone. Nobody really asks why I'm doing so badly anymore-it just feels like it's become a fact about me. I'm ashamed of what I've become, both for myself and for the people close to me.
I don't know how to live with the consequences. I feel trapped.
I just want to run away. I want to disappear.
I don't even know what I'm looking for by posting this. Maybe I just needed someone to know that I'm not okay.