I went outside!
So, I finally got out of that "oh god, everything is different, everything is bad, I'm very scared" spot I was in. And I decided to got outside, finally-
And it was not bad! I wore a T shirt (and my trusty fun swim trunks) and a hat, and I lathered on sunscreen, and I brought a bunch of water. I opted to not tube, but instead sit in the creek in a shady part, and it didn't feel horrible! I felt okay after, and I had fun, and I got a tiny bit of sunburn later (because I went outside in a tank top after with no sunscreen to chat with my mom) but even then I only got a minor sunburn! The biggest road block in that was re-explaining to my mom (who we were going to the creek with) that I had taken all the necessary preparations to be safe at the creek so we were good to go. But most importantly, it was fun and it was one of the few times since I got diagnosed that I didn't feel like my world was ending.