u/fatmandicc

19m, psychosis and depression, shut in for 4 months, no high school diploma.

I’m currently forcefully admitted to a mental hospital, I have been here 6 days now. Trying to get out with a lawyer but I have to wait until Wednesday to speak to one. I was told that I’m here because I’m «currently unable to accept treatment» they also told me that I’m a danger to myself and others. Also I was lied to in the process of being admitted so I have a really hard time trusting any of the staff.

Even when I do get out of here I will probably just go back to being a shut in. At home I usually spend 22 hours in bed watching my phone all day. I have no marketable skills and even if I do the exam I’m missing I have too low grades to get into a decent university.

Loneliness is what hurts the most for me, I have no close irl friends and because of my symptoms it’s hard for me to make online friends without blocking them if I think they are conspiring against me or reading my mind.

I just don’t know what to do anymore, I feel so stuck and far behind compared to other people my age. I don’t know if I’m ever going to be able to live a normal life and have stable employment. Thankfully it’s easy to live or welfare in my country so I can just do that if nothing works out ig. How do I even move forward, what I’m I supposed to do?