I hate how much my mental health effects my relationships
I don’t get attached easy but when I do, I end up relying on them for happiness and all I ever want in life is love because it’s true the best feeling to be loved however I’m very sensitive to things like tone changes in your voice and facial expressions and whenever I perceive any form of negative emotion I instantly register as abandonment and I will either ask for reassurance or push people away to make them show me they care by coming back however if they don’t come back, I will panic and probably scare them away to the point where they’ll never wanna speak to me again. I did this to my ex, we had an intimate moment I wanted some reassurance afterwards he couldn’t give it to me and it really triggered me, he broke up with me and asked for space. I couldn’t give it to him as I become obsessed with getting closure as to why he left me, now he has blocked me on every single platform forever. I thought he was going to always be there for me. I’m so sad…. If you have any advice also please let me know