How to be alone, not lonely? (an introvert's struggle)
I'm an introvert who has to often "turn it on" and be extroverted. I socialize but prefer to keep it to the same 5 people.
I'm not looking for a relationship. I'm very much ok with being alone and have zero desire for a relationship (haven't been in one for a decade).
I WFH, sometimes from coffee shops, usually not.
I'm ok with being alone. Finally. I'm getting better at it. But being lonely is what I'm struggling with.
There are days like today that I'm doom scrolling, haven't done anything productive, not even interested in reading a book, and those 5 friends are busy.
Is there a place I can go to not feel lonely and interact with people without feeling obligated to be super sociable?
I have nothing against a good conversation with a couple of people, but large gatherings are starting to give me more and more anxiety and nervousness. (I'm 39F woman and such a cliche ha)
I can often be a night owl so a place where people are out late is also helpful.
P.s. I can explain more about myself and what brings me here but I'm getting flack on another reddit post about the length of my story about a family trip ha. Trying to keep it brief...