u/fingchutiyafan

I really can't put an end to this i can't do this shit anymore its annoying seeing me wide awake realising how disgusting and deranged i have become like genuinely it has gone work i had an addiction since the age of 12 and its one and off since but lately i can't even stop myself anymore i did it twice and when i was done i realised how gross i am... How girls my age are better students or at art or music something or the other and i am just average i used to be a A grade student and now I can even go up till B.. fuck.. I have ruined my life genuinely one time a girl (i like women as a girl) said that she wants to r word me and that genuinely mad em happy because thats how deranged i had become i am imagining grooming and sexual assault at this point... Just to feel something and after i am done being a sub i have realised my hypersexuality is gonna kill me mentally I am like so fucked up from the mind at this young age i have been groomed more than 3 times now and it doesn't stop women thing of me like that now.. I am too young to be thinking about cnc .... To young to be thinging about sexual desires...i sometimes feel like i should kms.

hi? i am min jae ( not my real name) i am 15....i don't have many memories of my childhood because i used to live with my dad and aunt and my mum was in another... state for her job when i was in sixth i started living in this house with my aunt she is 6 years older( i know less age gap) um so when i was in 6th she was in 11th and my dad 42 m used to SA her. and beat her for drinking and having guy friends.. and i don't recall memories before those years.. so i have mostly lied that i got bullied in my childhood to my friends when they talk about childhood....i am a lesbian... i know a bad bad thing to be here... i became very hypersexual in those days... i made my imaginary world and talked to people but in 8th grade i fell in love with a girl which made me realise i might like girls... and after the breakup.. i was broken... i also had a brother and my breakup and his death happened in the same year 2025 ( aunt + dad with me and mum and my brother in another state) so i uh i grieved about his death but my mum got insane after his death.. and um she get like nightmares and everything and she was pregnant with a kid while my brother died and after his birth she started trying to become my bsf and trying to see my middle brother in that kid but she could never.... my aunt and me were pretty close... and recently i got into a very sexual relationship with a girl online her name will be uh vio (so she is 17.). she has a heart disease and she will uh pass away soon between aug or sept... and she is terminally ill, we met like chats and we just like showed each other body part but as time went by i fell and she fell in love with me too..we talked about life my mental thing and everything and my aunt found out.. she was homophobic she found out 3 times and just blocked her and last night i made a mistake.. i texted her again and my aunt found out she slapped me more and more and more grabbed my hair and everything... my legs are weak and my finger is broken i think... i don't know what to do