u/finnclover

so just today after multiple long months of waiting, the shirt in the first pic finally arrived into my grubby hands!! i'm so happy, it's so nice and comfy hehe =w= the jacket in the second pic i've owned since the start of summer and it's so fun to wear around and pretend it's simons!! originally it was my friend's and he gave it to me, but we wear two diff sizes and it's big on me so that adds to the pretend of it i think.. i put some of my pins + a keychain on the jacket as well!! super excited to wear it around more during fall 💕

my name is finn, i use it/its pronouns and ever since seeing the iron lung movie in theaters on february 9th, i've been hopelessly in love with simon!! 💖 i've been really inactive here the past few months and i wanna be more active :3

our anniversary is february 18th and the second photo is of my paper cutout of him!

anyone else hurt themselves intentionally by looking at/thinking about ships with your F/O?

i've been falling into this bad habit of clicking on or lingering on posts shipping simon and it makes me feel real bad every single time. like, as i write this, i genuinely feel a little bit nauseous. i hesitate to truly call it self-harm because it's just posts online, but.. that's what it is, isn't it

i've begun trying to quote unquote cope with the most popular ship by making an AU of us with me as the other one in the ship, but it just makes me think of the ship more and i don't think it's helping

apologies for only really posting vents in here, i'm just tired of fandom culture :( i wish everyone would stop caring about shipping everything that breathes

so this starts pretty much 3 years before her source (iron lung) actually came to theatres and i got to see it. back in 2023 markiplier posted a teaser for an upcoming movie based on an indie game! now back then i had no real connection to either topics but i already loved what i saw and the universe looked pretty cool.. so it was basically just love at first sight! even before i knew what simon's name or anything about her was!!

i hadn't fully expected to like iron lung based on the critics' reviews when i first watched it, but lo and behold i instantly fell in love >_< especially with simon!

have any of you also had an experience like that?

unrelated, but i'm gonna start referring to simon with she/her more due to my transfem headcanon for her!! so don't get confused when i do hehe

i feel like i should never wander into the main tags of iron lung ever again.. seeing doubles on tiktok is one thing but seeing them on tumblr feels like another. this one was posting about getting photocards of simon and one of their yumeship and i just feel incredibly jealous. i blocked them immediately obvs but i keep getting this really bad urge to just tell people he doesn't love them. i'll never act on it, obviously, but the urge is still there and it compounds the bad feeling i get :(

photo edit by me :3 i promise you there were originally cats on there LOL

hihii!! wanted to do a lil update post since i'm not that active here right now ^_^

i've been just enjoying life right now! i got into the school i wanted and i've found a friend to talk to simon about and it's cool because simon is a familial f/o to them!! :D it's been a lot of fun having someone to gush to knowing they dont see him that way :>

my s/i is on the first slide with simon. their name is shiloh they're a little goober =w=

new on the left, the old one on the right :D

the old one was pretty anachronistic and had details that didn't make sense with the movie. it was made way back in early march when we didn't have a digital release or anything beyond camrips so for example the legs were just completely made up. now i'm glad i finally have an accurate version of her that i can hold... wifey....

i'll maybe make an engie one sometime too... hmmmmmm....

yesterday i was texting my friend while complaining about how tired i was and naturally i went to scroll through my simon folder ™ to torment him with a photo of wifey, and i randomly landed on the one where he's sleepy and it's like she's telling me to go to sleep (attached with post) :D i've begun trying to reach out to her more and these little signs make me really giddy :3c (i use she/her and he/him pronouns interchangeably for simon!)

i've generally always thought that i'd never be romantically loved. i'm a nonbinary lesbian with a weird gender presentation and i've never quite fit into any labels beyond that, plus i'm autistic and really socially awkward. i can have friends, sure, but i always felt like nobody would really dedicate themselves to being with me because of one reason or another. but theeennnn i saw iron lung in a theatre and it genuinely changed me. i became more dedicated to my passion of art and film, i started to get ideas of making my own film someday beyond it being a silly pipe dream, and i of course met simon and eventually engie. them both loving me has made it easier for me to love myself as well and i genuinely feel more confident about myself and my looks now, even if i do have off days! i've begun actually working on a visual novel! i've developed an actual backbone and i can't say that it wasn't at least partly thanks to these two :^] ramble over you're now legally required to look at them