u/fluffylilbee

she slept so hard after, she’s my brave lil girl. her confidence has grown so much i’m such a proud mama 🥹🥹🥹

i knew i’d love having a fluffy cat but it’s better than i ever expected!!!!

sorry about the litter in the background lol but we’re about three weeks into pearl (calico) being home, and she and binky have made so much progress in their relationship!! binky needed a playmate so badly, she’s so hyper and was a terror to our first resident cat, so it’s been the most beautiful and sweet and surprising development to see how gentle she is with pearl!!! she’s so respectful of boundaries after learning them, and has been actively helping pearl learn to do tackles and takedowns and be the one to strike first, since little pearl’s so shy and careful herself. she’s a baby! i’m so lucky that things are going so well

i am ironically obsessed with obsession!!! super inspiring film for me, i had so much fun drawing this. blood is so fun to paint!!!

i love this little baby so bad!!! she’s the sweetest and so fun and playful, already loves our resident cats. i’m so happy i get to brush this thing every day! always wanted a calico and a long-haired cat, i feel so spoiled to have gotten both in one. she is the cutest thing ive ever seen!!!

both little paws and her chin on the fountain, i bet she felt nice!

also if you say it looks unfinished or bad that’s BULLYING because it’s just my art style !!!! i don’t have to draw anything i don’t want to!!!11!!1 i don’t NEED to learn fundamentals just compliment me and don’t point it out!!!!!

something about how trauma memories are like death and a body is like a dormant volcano

maybe he’s onto something idk

my spare room & Corner Of Miscellaneous Things That Will Become A Studio Space Eventually has been a nightmare MESS for over a year bc of severe depression, burnout and dissociation. several diagnoses later & some time to rest, i finally felt ready to tackle it all today and i feel SO ACCOMPLISHED!! six whole hours (my playlist repeated itself 🤯) and a lot of soreness but it’s DONE and i for real couldn’t be prouder. i hope this helps motivate some of you crafty girlies too!! :D

i just learned how to animate through instagram reels so i’m planning on releasing my first animated show soon :3!!!! btw please do not say my style looks like v*vziepop i don’t even know who that is……………

being traumatized by ur family, being told they want to fix it, only their version of fixing it is how it’s always been; blame you for the effects of their actions no matter what. sure, we admit we did wrong, but why are you so torn UP over it? meanwhile, the dysfunction they sowed started before you were born, so you were literally born with neonatal memories of pain and fear. born with grief.
i’m tired.
transcript:
it’s comforting to feel like i was born in grief.
i didn’t find it or choose to shoulder it.
i didn’t earn it.
that i came into the black with all the agony and pain of a mourner,
a widow who cries until her skull is shocked & split with sadness,
with none of the shame
or memory
of making it happen at all.

but i was not born in grief.
i collected those moments, i shelved them, and ate them,
i let them become my grief.
& there is no room for victims.
if you feel bad over it, you deserved it.
so do not be born with grief.