u/fluffylilbee

being traumatized by ur family, being told they want to fix it, only their version of fixing it is how it’s always been; blame you for the effects of their actions no matter what. sure, we admit we did wrong, but why are you so torn UP over it? meanwhile, the dysfunction they sowed started before you were born, so you were literally born with neonatal memories of pain and fear. born with grief.
i’m tired.
transcript:
it’s comforting to feel like i was born in grief.
i didn’t find it or choose to shoulder it.
i didn’t earn it.
that i came into the black with all the agony and pain of a mourner,
a widow who cries until her skull is shocked & split with sadness,
with none of the shame
or memory
of making it happen at all.

but i was not born in grief.
i collected those moments, i shelved them, and ate them,
i let them become my grief.
& there is no room for victims.
if you feel bad over it, you deserved it.
so do not be born with grief.

so i gave her little eyelashes!!!! clione looks so much sweeter now. my first bab modification and i think it came out super good!

i left a little hanging over the cheeks because i think it adds to her softness, but otherwise i tried to keep the features very visible! still thinking of names but im so excited about this gal, more than i can even write out 😭😭!!!

i have literally been looking for this ridiculous thing for ages with no luck—i’ve snagged things on the nook shop specials that i didn’t even know *existed.* NOT THE CASTLE GATE!!!! please anyone, i’ll even take cataloguing it, i just wanna finish decorating how i want D: i have a huge catalogue of items to trade for, i’d be so so grateful to trade for anything i can! thank you!!!