u/funnyguy9641

I don't care what people say i want a family of my own. I'll keep searching trying to find that special person to give my love to and spend my time with them.

Some people may say im not happy with myself but I am; i have friends that love me, family that loves me and I have a good time with them, yes I vent on here when im at my lowest points pouring my heart out but it doesn't mean im desperate.

I want to make someone happy and that's what I care about relating to them on a personal level knowing them for them; I had some niche advice earlier and it really angered me but im casting that aside im not going to let him get to me im going to keep being this fun loving goofy guy everywhere I go even if it is a mask I wear I don't care it is my mask and I will wear it with pride!

Until I find that person to where I dont need to wear it anymore whomever you are that said I wasn't ready and I would damage the relationship that's fine your entitled to your own opinion.

But you don't know me and the type of man I am, I persevere I didn't quit then im not quitting now.

I'll find someone and make them the happiest person in the world I promise you that. I'm not going to let anything bring me down even if I'm met with more silence ill keep going until someone see's the true me.

I feel so alone

I sit here with my best friends everyday every one of them either has someone they hold dear to their heart or they have a family, I want this. i want someone I can hold close and love genuinely and start a family with but im never given the chance to love someone like that they always pass me by and pay no mind to me and when I finally get in touch with someone they block me for saying I want to have some fun with my life and I want someone to do it with, does anyone take into consideration how I feel? all alone every single night,

It is the worst feeling ive ever felt the loneliness the silent room an empty bed nobody to hold close nobody to show the love ive had bottled up for years that I want to give to a girl and make her happy but I feel like they dont want my love.

The silence is deafening sometimes and when im alone I have to try to calm myself I know im a man I work really hard but we cry too when nobody is looking just because I look happy doesn't mean I am happy I have nobody to call my own and it hurts every day I cant help but dwell on it since im always on multiple dating apps without people matching with me and when they do they dont reply its really making me doubt myself am I even good enough to attract someone is something wrong with me.

I cant bear it sometimes the overwhelming feeling of this like right now this is why im typing this out because this is the only thing keeping me from crying this very second I know I have family that love me and friends that love being around me but its not the same thing im so hurt inside feeling this way I try to put myself out there and tell them about myself but nobody is listening ive matched with well over 50 women this year alone and not even a "hey hows your day going" I truly dont know how much longer I can take this overwhelming loneliness im not going to do anything to myself or others but I just feel myself breaking, im a funny guy who is goofy loves to draw and watch a variety of TV,anime,video games,im trying new things and getting out but still nothing I want to attract a partner im even trying to dress nice and put on cologne but like I said Im not having any luck.

Ive been needing to vent this for quite some time now ive been holding this in for years

I just long for someone. I want to hold them close cuddle with them make memories have some laughs but as of this moment im not laughing im not having a good time and I dont have anyone or anything to hold close as this title says I just feel so alone...

I even made this account just to write this and put it somewhere in the world so someone can possibly hear me.