u/galaxy_kat187

The report finally came back about what killed my 8 year old daughter. Now I feel even more guilty than I did before. Apparently her pancreas gave out due to being an undiagnosed diabetic. She never showed any symptoms of diabetes. Even the night she died she had only been throwing up on occasion so we just thought it was a stomach bug. I feel so guilty that she died of something that could have been prevented apparently. I already felt guilty about her dying but now it's 10 times worse and I absolutely hate myself for letting this happen. Not to mention come Monday we will be able to pick up her ashes from the funeral home. I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish I could just trade places with my baby.

I haven't talked to my so called father in over 10 years. He literally has only met 1 of my 6 kids and that was the oldest. My son is 17 years old, my biological father only met him 1 time when he was 6 months old that's it. Now that my youngest daughter who was 8 has died, he showed up unannounced at my brother's house where my step dad had my 14 year old with him. My biological dad had never met my 8 year old or my daughter that my step dad had with him. He shows up unannounced after calling my brother of course and finding out that my step dad was there with my daughter. He said nothing about stopping by and even had the nerve to stop at a gas station and buy a 6 pack of Pepsi to give to my daughter. Acting like he just had it sitting in his car and doesn't like Pepsi. I know how that man is, I know he bought it to try and bribe my daughter, not to mention it was ice cold after supposedly sitting in his truck. Now all of a sudden he wants to talk to me and make amends. That man made my life hell as a child. He is an alcoholic and used to abuse my mother when I was a small child. I was born an entire month prematurely because he decided to argue and throw shoes at my mother while pregnant and caused her blood pressure to go sky high. The last time I talked to him was on the phone and we argued and he told me I wasn't allowed at his funeral when he died. I said fine and never talked to him again. Now he just randomly shows up after my daughter died on the 30th wanting to talk. I don't need this crap right now. I want nothing to do with him. But I also know he won't easily give up. I don't understand why he's doing this now? Why now all of a sudden when I'm going through one of the absolute hardest times of my life. I knew he was an as*hole but I didn't even think he could be this big of an as*hole. I wish he would have never even tried and now he's trying to emotionally manipulate my daughter by giving her things. I just can't deal with that crap on top of everything else.

My daughter's obituary came out today. This hurts so bad. I don't know how to live without her. Her siblings seem to be doing ok. A lot better than me and my husband. I can't stop crying. I just want my baby.

It's only been a day and a half and I already miss my daughter so much. I don't know how to live without her. My 8 year daughter died on the 30th. I miss her so much and I just want to hold her again. I never thought I'd lose one of my kids. Then it happens and we lose the baby of the family. The youngest of 6 kids. The other 5 absolutely doted on her. She was best friends with her 10 year old sister. Nobody in the family knows what to do with themselves. Her father and I can't stop crying. I am absolutely devastated that she's gone. She was such a momma's girl. I'm scared that she's out there alone somewhere all by herself. She was always scared to be alone. I don't want my baby to be alone. I just want her back and in my arms again and never let her go. I want to hear her tell me she loves me to the moon and back and I tell her I love her to sun and back. Then she tells me that she loves me to the end of the universe and back. Then I always would make something up like saying I loved her to the next galaxy and back or tell her I love her through a black hole and all the way through to the other side and back. She would always argue that she loved me more than I did her. I'm broken without her. Her dad can't stop crying. Her siblings are all in shock. Her 10 year old sister is scared to go to sleep because when she did that night her sister died she had to be woken up to go to the hospital. So now she's scared that something else bad will happen while she's asleep. My oldest son just doesn't talk at all. He is 17 years old and was in the back seat holding her, while her dad rushed to the hospital. She stopped breathing in the parking lot as soon as they got there and the ER staff never got her back. So she died in her brother's arms. I just want my baby back. 💔

I had a tire go flat and I have to get it fixed today. I need 100$ so I can get it patched and pay someone to give me a ride to go get it fixed or if it can't be fixed to buy a used tire until I can afford a new one. I have to get this done today as I work the next few days and can't miss work. I work with the elderly and can't call out on short notice unless it's an emergency. I have had 2 loans off of here before and both have been repayed on time or early and I have no loans out right now. I usually use PayPal goods and services but can also use cash app or Venmo. Whatever is easiest for the person giving me the loan. If anyone can help that would be wonderful. It's not been a very good month for me unfortunately.

Prearranged loan with u/xThock for 100$ repayment on 7/17 for 150$

prearranged loan u/xThock

Bills took a little extra this month and I'm short on gas to get to work. My pay date is the 28th and will repay 75$ on that day. Any help would be appreciated. Thank you!