u/germ_bot

im so destroyed it sucks how much something like this can change you. like my life split in two before vs after finding out what he was watching. even if i wanted to love him and act like nothing he disgusts me and my stomach hurts. i have bpd, i have a lot of things wrong with me, ive been clean off hard drugs for a while but now it feels like theres nothing holding me back i dont care for it anymore. im just like a shell i cant even cry anymore today.

edit - im only 22 years old in Missouri and this feels like the only option i refuse to pay money when i was badly hit my car ruined and i was injured😔

i was badly hit in december my car was totaled and my insurance policy had just expired november 4th.
i was broke from christmas shopping said i’d wait one more month to renew boom look at my luck. anyways
i tried to get multiple different lawyers to help me get something out of this case but it was hard to determine fault since no one called the cops i know i know it was my first wreck ever i didnt know what to do i was disoriented and crying sue me i guess

MORAL OF THE STORY

i got a call from this man’s insurance 5 months later telling me they are faulting me for the wreck and i owe $16,000
i have no real job i already pay my mom $100 weekly out of the small amount i do make because of something that happened in the past i owe her $8,000. i have no car nothing no real income i live at home and i have no clue what to do about any of it, i was just in the process of trying to get a loan for a shit box car because i have nothing no way to do anything.
is this bankruptcy valid?

this is what gets me going back everytime i try to quit
what can i do to make this even somewhat manageable? im probably doing like 120 mgs a day and by the 3rd or 4th hour without it i start getting the restless legs and arms and i cant bear it what can i do what can i take